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Heat.

whoo.

dammmit

im sickk

again

for de third time dis yearr

suckss

nehh go skul

dammit

miss mam lesson

shitshitshitt

no matter how much i HATE her

i noe tt she's crucial in mi life

god dammit

at least i hev khai

thank gawd!

realli.

lucky no band

how to go skul tmr sehh

i hev to go i nid to go

but i dunooo

n mi dad wun let me go doctor

he keep givin me norm medication

crap lar!

sooner or later lai wud realise

n probably kol up mi parents

gawwd

den i fot wid him yest

me: papa! i canort eat dis fish la. its spicy! i gort sore throat. again.

[mi mum cooked de fish wif LOTS n LOTS of sambal tt wan]

him:alarh.jus sae bismillah den jus eat laa. nth will hapen

[i was pissed at de 'concern' he gave me]

me: i dowan larhh. den u dun let me do doc!

u keep saein jus pray n pray.

den if i gort disease can tt help anithin

by saein bismillah i can be cured isit?

him: *shutted up

gawd

i duno wad to do

btw heather..

if u wanna noe more abt family fucked up stawries..

jus come to ME.

im sori abt dat pool thingy

i understan ur dad's fuckin up

seriously

ive been gettin it since i was so young

ive been bashed, slapped, kicked by mi mum n bro

thou it was last time

it stil hurts

ya noee

de memories are forever to stay

it sux

it hurts

n dunch u dare tink dat

no one wil be dere for u

u can count on me

thou im nt always dere for u

u noe wen u cry

u can call me

or u feel hapi

u better tell me bout it

i wud be here

for u

n char too

bt dun take it tt i dun hev mi own probs

its jus tt i dun show it

dere was one period of time

i cried all nite loong

n no one noes

i damn noe how it feels

bt i jus keep it to miself

i tink tts y i dun giv as much i noe i can

i was nvr good to talk to

cus u noe

i CANOT stan whinings

cryings r fine wid me

i noe we r total opposites

i gues dats y we fite alot

yet we wud stick for each other

hee

rite.

hope soo.

i tink im more humble now

guess oni

dun xpect much thou

sighh

newaes

i foun dis kute guy ritee.

i used to hev a crush on

laaast time

den he got attached

i wasn hartbroken

i stopped likin him befure he got attached

ya.

now im noticin him again

i duno if he has an affair wid dis gerrl

she pretty la

cina

duh-

bt she is one of de better ones

bt she now wid anuder guy

hu i dun giv a damn

bt sometimes she wud go wid 'diskuteguy'

hu is her ex

i dun like him

its jus a crush

mi lyf jus seems to be full of crushes eh

-pun intended

jam jam jam

i miss him

no.

i miss his caring werds

alwaes askin if i came alllll de wae dwn frm wdl

kinda dumb

cos its obvious

but i wud jus smile n sae 'yea'

ahahaa

den we wud jus walk awae

while mi heart wonders

but life goes on

sighh

wad to doo

hope dis phase wil get over wif

so dat i can start a new chap

meantime

i'll jus let mi hart wonder moree

hee.

n no one wil noe abt him

its ridiculous actualli

but mi heart flutters

n yada yada yada

oh stoppit alreadi

im nt feelin rite

i dun wan de sun to set

arhh!

i dun wan de nite to comee

i dun wanna go skoooool!

AAAARRRRRHHHHH!!

ciao-

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