yays. im done wid eng. but ive stil got malay to do. n i haven write a letter on why i didn go to da cross country. i tink im gonna write tt my family had to go malaysia for some marriage on sat. =)) hehh. bad idea to write here.. so heh. the last time, i had my mum sign a blank paper n asked pris to write for me the letter. was it dis year? i forgot. lol. but her handwriting reali the pro kind. lols. pecah rahsia beb.

tudae was boring. i woke up at 2pm. n once again, im becomin nocturnal. man, isn it easier livin as a couch potato.. i shld stop biting my nails.... i dun even noe wat im nervous for. tmr? malay hw? seein mr. stix? forgetting if i do hw? oh. maybe all of de above..

im rather glad tt my older bro n sis are stil up, watchin tv. yest, somethin freaked me out. u see, jus aft i finished my last entry, i smelt cigarettes. the exact marlboro red tt mi grampa smokes wen he's at home. so, the comp is near the main door. n wen mi grampa is home, he wud owaes go outside for a smoke. usually, the smell wud be overwhelming. but yest, it was around abt 3.15 a.m. mi grampa wasnt home. i was stil on de comp. den i smelt marlboro red. it wasnt strong but i was certain tt i smelt it. i mean, i noe de smell. im nt mistaken. den dere was dis huge gust of wind. bt de freakin weird thing was tt the leaves on the balcony, on my right, did nt even move! it scared the shit outta me. then suddenly, dere was dis heavy ache on my left shoulder. man, its lyk as if i've been carryin the bass on mi shoulder for so so long. it hurts hell. n it strained badly. so u guessed wat i do. switched off the bloody comp and ran all de wae to the other side of the house, mi room. n den SHIT! mi sis locked de door. she was asleep but de room light was on. i was so frantic! i was lyk knockin on de door so loudly. i was seein red. n de family rm - where the comp is, was glowing red. mebbe it was because mi head was throbbing wid blood lyk madness, makin mi vision reddish.. it wasnt bright red, a faint one actuali.. but stil, i was scared shit. i forgot abt the pain on mi left shoulder. n i was stil seein red. n it was so dark.. =(( n ive had dis phobia of darkness since i was young. mi mind plays tricks on me. i mean, im seriously achluophobiac - fear of darkness. other times, im cool. but wen mi mind is filled wid ridiculous thots, it jus scared de shit outta me. i can be scared of plainly nothin. its jus a cause of mi imagination. it sucks. n i feel safe wen dere is someone ard. call me chicken but dun u dare sae u aint scared of at least somethin. so anywaes, wen i was on mi bed, i switched off the lites n went to slp. at least i tried to. i needed mi mp3. but i left it in the study.. which means i hev to cross the family rm n de study is right beside the main door. im lyk..NO WAE. i was stil seein red. but i cld hear mi sis on the bed n im lyk..phew. somehow, i did slp. the ache on mi left shoulder was gone. mi heart was stil thumping lyk mad thou.. okays. im freakin miself out here, now..

oh shit. i hev mi malay to do. whoops. kinda went a wee bit too far, dere. heh. oks. gd nite. brrr. ciao-