okay, im really sorry that i havent been blogging. its enough energey being seeped from me. what with night study of all lessons you can think of. argh!

most people would even doubt the existence of this blog. haha.

oh, no matter.

things have been well so far. i just wanted to blog this one last time in honour of my still loving boy, seth. heh. yesterday we went to bugis and beach road to give me a little retail therapy. and i must say, the best way to know your boyfriend better is to bring him shopping. man, i thought i knew him inside out. but yesterday was the butter on the bread man! i was a princess! he has never treated me so gentle the whole time we were together. and when something catches my eyes, he will use that soft tone and lovingly asks me if i want it. even if i dont want it, i just cant bring myself to reject his offer. =x haha. okay, i know its sickeningly sweet for a come-back-from-long-hiatus post. but i want to show that i finally realise how much a sweet boy he really is and how i have taken it for granted and even broke down some few weeks ago on how it isnt fair that other girls get a sweet bf while i dont. and oh boy, how i realise ive been blinded all this while. and im saying all this, to show that im proud to have muhd seth as my bf and not shy to show the world how lucky i really am. -gloat gloat- heh.

darn, i miss blogging so much! but its not the right time to start all over again. really, im putting out the password soon enough. save my time of telling people the password and explaining to them that im not against them reading my blog or anything. in the end, i am obliged to give them the password. how ironic. -.-''

my dad is gone to dubai for a whole two years. sigh.. and i am actually sad about it. as much as i disliked him (very rarely, as im not the usual anti-parent teen) im positively not so happy that this is the first raye without a father. hmm.. =/ you really dont know what you've got till its gone. im in the best position to say that. as long as that person you hate gave you a life, you will really feel a void when he or she is gone. say whatever you want, disagree for all i care, but you dont understand. you wont.

nuff said. ive read a whole thick comic on spiderman. OH YEAH! hes my favourite superhero. thanks to bebeh, im all hooked on that lycra-suit web slinger. he hot sial!

oh, and ive barely scraped through the month of fasting. its hard to not succumb to your innermost desires. it takes so much gut and self discipline. things that im least bestowed with. god, i feel like a sinful loser. and really, believe it or not, im trying (and forgetting that im trying) to stop being vulgar. but god knows how many times i shouted at wen jie or being violent during the last week of school. ARGHH! im only like this because im filling in seth's job as the protective one. hahahahahaha. sial ah, that sounds so funny.

speaking of which, i barely enjoyed the last week of school as it is rather sentimental to leave my class of two years. its sad. ive heard of stories how they ex students feel different as they were so routine to going school and having a forced bond with a class. sigh.. i wonder how it'll be for me.

alrightey, i have to get back to my lit. i have to practise loads! and you younger losers wont understand how busy we graduating people are until you're living it soon enough. argh! so much to do, so little time! take care suckers. i still love you. CIAO-