I know if I type something angsty, I'd regret it when I wake up tomorrow.


I finally have the courage. To tell you.


I feel every bit of pain you went through when I so drastically left you for someone I thought I'd have a better relationship with.. Every time my heart aches, I think of you. And wonder, this was probably how he felt.


DANIAL,
I'M SORRY.
FOR EVERY FUCKING TEAR.


I know it's so long in the past. And you probably don't care anymore.. That's why I keep postponing this post. But fuck, I don't care about being embarrassed anymore. I want you to know.


If there was one thing I wish I could change, it's not all the shit that Seth put me through. But I'd take back hurting you that night. Because for the rest of my fucking pathetic life, I'll forever regret hurting you. I hope you're reading this, somehow. Can someone please tell him...


I guess you can ignore this. And we'll talk and pretend that nothing's happened. And you'll still sing for me and make me laugh silly. You can still be in love with your current beau and stuff, I don't care. It's not your love that I want. I just hope you've forgiven me.


(And hope you'll end this bad karma once and for all..)


If you have to know, karma feels like shit..


Seriously. Don't hurt the only person who's ever loved you.


Seth, you're next! Ha-ha.

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