Dear BFF,


You didn't miss much really. The only huge difference was that I got kicked out of school lol. Of course I got back in and never looked back since.


I've told you about Shahrul right? Yeah well that didn't work out too well. I wouldn't say much for now though but it's been a while since I heard from him and I miss him but that's a long story.


I wish you'd have met him though. You guys would have been awesome together. But confirm annoy and irritate me til no end I bet haha. I'm fucking confident that you'd have liked him cos anything is better than the last right. Hahaha.


Speaking of which, I don't think you'd be proud of me when I tell you that I chose the ex over Shahrul. Yes yes. I feel like beating my head to pulp too. But it's because I didn't wanna have to lose the guys too.


Sadly though, things have been shaky with them too since my having a boyfriend drama. Too much drama which I just had to let go. :/ And also since I've been mad busying myself with school since I'm too damn paranoid about not graduating now. Haha.


I miss my bandmates too. I had to give them up for school. Yes, school is pretty much what I'm obsessed with. And it's better this way anyways. If you knew me, this has got to be a far cry from the last time you saw me, the slacker, lol.


You'd be glad to know that Shahrul was the one who pushed me to become like this. It's a good thing. Haha. I wish I'd have you to call and talk to when it gets too lonely for me. I'll never forget those days when I'd just call you and say nothing but "I misss himmm..." and proceed to cry my eyes off. What a stupid dick. Hahaha.


I won't say that I'm not happy with my life right now. Because I'm still blessed. (Can't believe I used such a gay word hahaha.) I'm grateful for the girls. My heroes. :) But I'm not fully content. Without you, I've made bad choices, I'm suffering from my mistakes and I wish I still had that one person I always turned to no matter what, no matter when. I hope you know I miss you.


Please forgive me for everything..


Love,
Yan.
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