You know what I need? All I really need is for someone to be there for me. To have my back so I won't be afraid to fall. To love me unconditionally and I'd know even when he doesn't tell me so. All I need is a a loyal friend.


I had all that, I know. There is no denying that you were the bestest kind of (boy) friend I could have ever asked for. You made me feel secure and you made me feel so good about myself. But I'm sorry it turned out this way.


I know I said the hatred ran too deep but come on, I can't really stay mad at you.. This doesn't mean I'm changing my mind about us. Just wishing that things were a little bit different.


Because I realise now that I'm more alone than ever. Possibly the toughest journey of my education life ahead and I have to face it without someone emotionally supporting me. Oh boy you were so good for me, why did things fuck up so bad. :(


But everything happens for a reason. At least if I can do this now, then maybe my future won't be so bad. These days I have a problem with believing in myself. I need to be stronger and stop being such a pessimist.


Fuck yeah I can do this. :)


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