i was surfin ard aimlessly. n havin finish readin half blood prince. n refusin to believe de endin, he yang askd me to go here. n i mus sae, im reali impressed. its as thorough as a lit essay n it all makes real good sense. it pretty much confirmed my suspicions n all. if u nothin to do, go dere. hee. of cos, i dun hev anithin to do. heh.

haiis. im jus so so sick of mi bro la. older one to be exact. hes one helluva mummy's boy. im jus so so sick of him. of all de things tt he gets to do. mebbe its becus he's de oldest guy ard after mi dad. but still.. its unfair. i remember goin thru a phase in mi life. bac in de bedok hse. where i cried evry nite. yes, evri single nite. it was at de point where mi bro kept abusing me. abuse his authority n such to gain wad he wants. it reali sucks. he tinks hes some big shot jus cos hes got physical strength n such. one dae, he'll pay. i dun care. im sure he will. n hes still smokin. ive known too many heavy smokers to even bother to tell him to quit smokin. i noe it'll be useless. plus, hes legal now summore. if onli parents knew. he'll be in some deep shit. but all mi life, ive been brought up to stick up for each other. ya noe. urgh. but still.. hes sucha mummy's boy. ive told him, straight up, up front, in his face, tt he's a mummy's boy. n i suspect tt he agrees. sheesh. atrocious. i sometimes wish mi family wasnt tt big. ive alwaes tot so actuali. scoldin vulgar n such to mi sibs in my previous entries. yes, ive been readin mi archives again. i realli hev got nth to do kays. (its not a valid reason, i noe) aniwaes. whye do mums favour de male sibling in de family so much. its so fuckin unfair. heather, in mi opinion, is another proof. but she gets as much love becaus she onli has one bro n not FOUR other sibs to compete wid for parents' attention. still, dis means, mi mum intrudes less in mi life. i lyk tt privacy. but it doesn giv her de right to spoil mi bro to her heart's content. hmphs. n i wonder whye. dis is a sad entry n not a pissed off entry. sheesh.

n dere hev been weird times in mi life wen i will stare at mi sib, especially de two younger ones, n wonder.. do i noe dem.. i jus feel uhh.. weird? eeks. im goin mad. but still.. dere r other times wen im wid earl n i wonder.. how did we get dis far.. n it makes me smile. for at least, i love him so. =)) im plungin into deep thoughts. get me out of here before it drowns me.. uhhhhhhhhhhh...