IF U DUN CARE ABT MI LIFE OR ANITHIN RELATED TO ME, DUN BE STUPID N READ ALL OF DE BELOW. COS WARNING, ITS A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT, REALI.

u noe.. it sucks being caught in de middle. life can be so unfair. whye am i de one caught in de middle? of all de billions of ppl in dis world. whye mus it be me, caught in between tbd n inde. whye. whye whye whye. wtf hev i done rong. hmm, perhaps ive been a bad grrl all mi life. argh. lesson learnt. but i jus wana sae.. i wun make earl quit. NO. dat is OUT OF QUES. but i wun stop wid tbd either. dat leaves me pretty much clueless. n khai, shud u wana criticise anione, go tell to dat person's face. dun come sae it to me. pls. it fuckin hurts. especially if he happens to be mi bf. it reali reali hurts. n its not nice.. jus hate dat mofo idiotic ego bastard. i understan dat u hev somehow develop dis hatred for god-noes-wad/who-cos-i-dun-actuali-noe.. but jus dun sae it in front of me. pls. i feel lyk romeo n juliet. tsk. so wad if earl is in inde. so wad if im in tbd n mi drummer hates mi bf's band? so wad if a fight mite break out anitime soon? so wad if de ones dat i love de most hate each other so much.. WTF AM I TALKIN MAN.. i dun understan. someone knock some sense into me. i hate to cry. n ive been cryin. urgh. but im on mi own. i want mi psychiatrist. oh so badly. but i want heather more. but she saes im scary wen i cry. (no, im no crybaby..) haa.. but i miss her so. hey, sighing works. it calms me dwn. tsk. wadever.

i was watchin all dese chick flicks.. lindsay n hilary movies esp. n i look at hilary in a cinderella story. n im jealous. how come she can hev a guy as her best fren yet keep a bf. i tink its rather not right to hev boys close to u wen ure attached. but de boys hev grown on me lyk some infection or worse, disease, such dat hangin out wid dem is jus normal. lyk as if dey r girlfrens. gross? i duno. i duno wtf im talkin abt aniwaes. n lindsay in confessions. how come she can be so obsessed wid a band n nobody in particular minds? i still hev alot of lessons to learn. god noes wad else is out dere for me. sigh..

n de vicious cycle continues. how cruel can it be. cos no matter wad, i love danial. so so so much.

i tink im goin crazy. someone help me here..... ooh. mi eyeliner is all smeared. coolness. upside of crying. tsk! weirdo.

btw, wen i sae haha, it doesn actuali reali mean im luffin all de time. sumtimes, i may hev jus run out of words to say. in fact, jus now, wen i was chattin on msn wid someone, i jus said haha. but actuali i was damn upset. no, i wasn happy. no, i wasn bouncin ard lyk i sounded. in fact, i felt shitty. n yeah, im not serious all de time. but ive grown up. hu doesn get sad? n i DO wana be taken seriously sometimes u noe.. jus wen do i wana stay sad? but me to duno, for u to find out.. life is unfair. go figure.

im talkin crap. cock. bullshit. plain bollocks dat u dun actuali care abt. im havin second thots abt publishing dis post. cos its stupid. tsk. nvm. i'll look back someday n luff n miself. or not. wadever. im tired. reali pooped out. blown off. argh. ciao-