WOW. there i go again. stupid la. when school starts, i'll get lazy to go online and update. more of like, too tired. come to think about it, i think im spending too much unnecessary time with bebeh. and it was proven on that fucking scary night. wont elaborate..

note to self: stop late night calls where possible, its not like you live on opposite ends of the world. and stop procrastinating homework. and stop being lazy. and stop throwing tantrums when you know he's the one and only one you love and care abt. and and and and and.. sooo many shit. oh, bass. fuck, im nvr gonna stop practising bass. umm.. its how i unwind. (cept for all those times i get fucked up when i cant get the sound right..)

anyways, ALOT had happened. and im not going to write the whole load of rubbish here.

umm, my holiday at perak. was cool. yeah, cool. cept i missed that someone so terribly, the goodbye was so painful i cried like i never did before. sigh..

first week of school was surprisingly long and very much dreary. the freakin june holidays went past in a blink of an eye. *snaps*JUST*snaps*LIKE*snaps*THAT. hahaha. ok, not funny.

being me, of course i havent done any homework. *smacks forehead*

seeing how ruthless that guy is, i decided not to talk to him anymore. perhaps he cant understand what it means by being someone sensitive but maybe he's just being who he is, painfully straight forward. in other words, a top of the notch malu chauvinistic pig. anals.

whatever. im not sick or mad at him. hes cool. he was nice. i just dont know what happened. i sensed a batu api in the form of that other fucker. ARGH.

i just hate losing a friend. or maybe he never did regard me as one in the first place. if you dont care, i surely cant care less.. what happened to all those times we chilled together. sure it was weird but i thought you were funny. a good friend to seth. etc. what happened? im blind to all these things now. youre transparent. im invisible. two beings totally not acknowledging each other. somehow, deep down, i still wanna know how he is. is he ok? was he badly hurt? SHEESH. hes not my bf even. not even close..

how ironic.. i dont care, really. =/

the england match got me super pissed. i snapped at my parents and lil sis who were supporting portugal cos they will support any team opposing england. stupid. somehow, that got me really super teeth-gritting-pissed. tsk. that night was awful. even brazil lost. LOST. LOST DAMMIT! wtf. just when i stopped supporting france, they go on strong. tsk. not that i regret stopping my support. i dont, really. ew?

I CAN PLAY MINORITY! I CAN PLAY! WOOOHOOOO! ok, it doesnt mean anything until your other band members actually make an effort to learn the song. noe im waiting for that guitarist to call to review my playing. i bet he himself is busy with his guitar instead. im telling you, if he wasnt my bf, i would have cekik (strangle) him long ago. that anal. haha. (whats with me and anal?!)

neo came into class a number of times. to scold the childish guys. omg. its just so damn stupid la. poor lzh. the rest, they deserved it. cept hadi? wj is a racist fucker and he admits it. and navin burst my balloon sculpture of the male genital. HEY, IT WAS ARTISTIC OK. alright. im just pissed cos it really obstructed me from doing proper studying. can i like, go join 4f or something. at least i know some people there who wish to study hard. tsk.

stupid malay newspaper. they claimed that goth was a branch from punk. wtf. no wonder my parents disapproves of me so much. they read rubbish.

oooh. neo also commented on how we should blog carefully and not about rubbish. she said something which i found particularly funny, "and dont blog about your love life la. its so disgusting! *screwd up face*" WAKAKA. okok. terase aku. then she looked somewhere around where khaii sits and said, "and there the guilty parties ah? looking at each other?" HAHA. omg. so funny. as a consolation, at least i write in proper english. who said your english lessons are wasted and bad etc. =))

im bored la. i done feel like blogging. loads of homework to do. tabs to get hold of. and my brain cells are lazy to think. therefore, goodbye. CIAO-