third day of school for the way. i dont know if its just me.. but school seems to exhaust every bit of cell in me. the moment i reach home, i feel like just crashing on my bed. and thats it. i just want to have my sleep. so imagine my anger when khairulanwar bin ibrahim woke me up at 10.45 p.m. to make me rehearse lines. and when i told him that i was sleeping, he said, "SHIT YOU." omfg. that boy deserves one tight slap. then he asked me to call nas hp. arrggghhh.. i was so bitchy that i screamed at my bro who took the guitar from my room and asked ME to keep it back. hey, a sleepy girl is a grouchy girl ok. there goes another night of undisturbed sleep. two days back it was my elder sis. that bitch. HERH.

so i called nas and we rehearsed. and to my bother, BEBEH WAS ASLEEP. how come HE doesnt have to wake up! *whiiiiines* oh wells. but im glad we rehearsed. or we would have come totally unprepared for the skit this morning.

i think it went fine. im just glad its over. haha. and bebeh tugged my heart strings (in a good way) when he tried to wow up the crowd by playing wake me up while i was setting up the props etc. haha. i swear he was soo adorable. and onle ME can stop him. HAHA. yes, yours sincerely, ME! HAHAHAHA. even if i was just a bassist to him, all i would need to do is to hit his head hard and he would shut up. *smiles sweetly* heh.

after recess, everything just when down and deeper for me. i was just so ARGHH and pissed and everyone else were irritated. while i was pissed. okay.. since this blog is more private now, i can at least say what happened..

so neo announced that there were some 120 s'pore idol preview tickets up for grabs. the only thing that astounded me was why would mediacorp ask DUNMAN SEC. lol! k, thats not the point. i couldnt be bothered as im not the sort who is patient enough to wait so long for something which is not even beneficial to me. (food is beneficial. i will queue up for food. hell yeah) in my head, i already constructed a plan to go out with seth on that tues night. (yes, IM the one who make dates. doesnt matter. haha) then, i found out that seth lined up for the tix. more of like, cut queue. lol. as always. i was fine with that as i thought that each eprson would get two tix. so im like, whatever. then i found out each person only got one. and im like..

*^&$%#@!#@^%$&*^$#^%!@#$&*&^%$

then i asked, "so who are you going with?"

he simply said, "the guys la."

so i just walked away into my classroom. i dont know la.. there was just something about his indifference that bothered me. it may come across as unreasonable behaviour to you but his tone was just like he didnt care. it really hurt.

that feeling stayed with me the whole day. i had absolutely no mood for physics practical. which was weird cos i love physics. lol. and i shouted at alvin who irritated me. to which he asked me, "now ask me why i hate you." that just pissed me off further so i just pretended not to hear him. i just quietly told khaii to go off first. ARGGGH. i was feeling just like that.

at the end of school day, bebeh came into class. i bloody ignored him. *slaps right cheek* i didnt reply to his sincere "what's wrong..." *slaps left cheek* and totally did not look him in the eye. *punches own nose* when he tried to unsuccessfully cheer me up by giving me a peck and a hug, i stiffened my body and pretended to do my maths hw. *punches ribs* and he pitifully sat there quietly with his head buried in his arms.. my heart broke but i was too pissed to bother.. *right leg kick left leg* and when he finally felt like everything was hopeless, he stood up and said to me, "good luck for your oral k syg.." gave me a peck and left. even though the teachers were already there. DARING PE?! haha. all i did was to slightly nod. *PULLS TRIGGER* im sucha dumbfuck.

however, my oral went pretty smoothly. the only glitch was that i didnt add in about my personal life into the conversation. i must say i was fluent. when i messaged vijay to rant at her, she said she saw my marks and it was good. WHEEE! =))

outside 4e classroom right before my turn, i saw bebeh on the 3rd floor. looking at me while waiting for me to look up. i wonder how long he stood there before i realised. gave him a flying kiss and that cheered me up. ORAL WAS GREAT.

then, i finally confessed to him about the tues-nite-plans-spoilt thingy. and the moment i said that was the reason why i was so sad, he immediately took out the tix and called afistz over. (who didnt have the tix) i was like shocked that i quickly protested. he insisted. and so afistz got the tix. it wasnt about the tix anymore. its about what he would sacrifice just for my happiness.

and that made me feel so horrible. damn, im a lucky bitch.

man, that was one grandmother story. i just wanted to keep it so i wont make that silly mistake again in the future. =) he really rocks my world! i let him call me slenge the rest of today. not that that was enough to make up for it..

yesterday went to the basement. played guitars and that was it. boring. while waiting for bebeh to finish his oral.. which was veeeeeryyyy loooongggg...

oh! when i was still not talking to him after the oral, i went to him and complained about what went wrong during the oral.. he was so gentle to me that it was a totally different side of him. for once, im the one being daintily cared for. =))

seriously ah. what a grandmother story. EH, DONT LIKE THEN FUCK OFF LA. its rather something between me and the man.

EVERYONE GIVE ME A PAT ON THE BACK. im beginning to like CHEMISTRY! woohoo! *pats my own back* there, im content. =))

eeeeeee... tomorrow three periods of lit... *fakepuke*

anyhows. TONIGHT GOT PROJECT RUNWAY! and i hate story spoilers ok. if you know the winner/you know the end of the story which i religiously keep up with/you recently already watched a movie i want to catch, DONT YOU DARE spoil the story. i will DAMN you like as if you killed my pet hamster. not that i have any to speak of. heh. you can go fuck off to your little corner and repeat the whole storyline to YOURSELF. dont make me smack you.

ok, enough hostility. im getting tired of it already.

note: have got to get new guitar strings.

thats all. i have school work to do. and tv to watch. i cant wait to hear what that bloody GAY jay will sing tonight. i hate his fucking emotional sissy sentimental guts. EWW. and whats with all the face cream? ergh.

"if you see seth, tell him i miss him." heh. CIAO-