i wanna go out with the guys oh so badly. but i kinda feel out of place without seth there. it wont be half as bad if heather was there though. that was why i ask, fiz.

im feeling bitchy.

as much as i loved prom ah, oh god there was certainly pollutants there.

im so against black people. im sorry. i should really stop being prejudiced against them. so to all nice indian people, im really sorry if im plain mean to you on the outside.

but there is just one blackie step hot in our school. seriously. k, i know my looks or lack thereof is nothing much to speak of. but i just feel like bitching ok. have i said that earlier?

so anyways, during the prom, she was labelled a model wannabe. like, FUCK! i almost choked on my ICED WATER can?! fuck! EW! sure, you join miss vasantham, i laugh my fucking humps off. EW. bitch, you're no bollywood type ok. you seriously look like sri lankan maid kinda species. with kurap and all. EW. fuck, EW. and one of her friends, whom im supposed to like, LOOK LIKE A FUCKING TRANSSEXUAL. and apparently, they got their makeup 'professionally done' as i've heard. another malay has no modesty to speak of. and boy, is she fat. even fatter than me, if i dare say. fuck, what is there to show but lumps of fat fat and FAT. and as i have heard, she always dresses like that? wow? it seems like jack the ripper totally needed that big piece of cloth to wipe his arse and just tore it off her back. EW. they have another chinese friend. i totally have nothing against her, but FUCK, EW! she looked like an old ah ma! damn. seriously disgusting! and another friend, i dont know her race. mixed probably? who gives a fuck. man, shes so fucking thin its so anorexic. and shes just plain weird. stare like theres a gaping hole in my shirt which sees through her nipples. and if anyone gets close to her boy, even when its "HER BOY" who gets close to the girl, she will stare at the poor girl like shes the problem (when its really her boy's playboy ways) and like as if theres a gaping hole in her shirt seeing through her nipples. but my main problem is with the model wannabe. okay, i cant speak any further. FUCK! EW! slut wannabe, i can understand. model never-will-be is also acceptable.

i know you may have nothing against me, but i simply have a problem with your existence.

fuck, the way she walks. im sorry. i just cant get it off my head. EW. fuck, ew. must i say that anymore. you get my drift yo?

argh, i did that to entertain myself. just for a couple of laughs. sure they might be having the time of their lives partying their arse off. but fuck, EW. (argh! i cant stop saying that!) sick can. i want to judge her. like a bitch would. fuck, who cares if i dont know you. black, i DONT WANT to know you. ha, i guess its mutual.

sorry if others get offended. esp priya. lol, you know the miss vasantham (did i even spell that right?) that we hate so much..

darn, whats happening to this world. seventeen and bad example. CARRY ON.

i miss project runway! haha.

thats enough for tonight. to h&h, sorry for surprising and making you guys have totally nothing to talk about. i know you guys were tired. hey boy, SEX SELLS! hahahaha. private joke.

i realise something, im fucking grateful for my friendship with heather. not once have i ever said anything bad about her. ever. i know for sure that its the same. cept during the part when i was drifted from her early this year. but i never was a hypocrite to her and i never regretted her being my friend. and i look around at other big cliques, its no use you guys hang out in big groups and having no true friends. unlesss you're the exceptional super-hot-glue-gun-tight kinda relationship. fuck, i love that girl ok.

and the guys i know totally have a different view on frindships. they seriously be there for each other and well.. im really impressed! admirable. seriously matured.. god, im finally starting to like them. thats good progress ok.

waiting for seth to come home for work. =)) miss you to bits. one happy year coming up! and not once a big row. how can i ever stop loving you ha? haha.

those hugs just now were not even close to enough.

k, time for me to fuck off. since h&h wont be online tonight. BOOOOOOO! k, CIAO-