don't you ever wish that life was simpler? why is it that we all have feelings to complicate things? i know, without meaning, there is no reason to live. but if we had no feelings, we would not even know what "life with a meaning" is all about right? you know? like how we ponder with the possibility of life on other galaxies? or another earth somewhere far far away? but its so impossible to find out, that we dismiss the mere thought of it. can we dismiss emotions? then "life with a meaning" would just be a wonder and not trouble us so much. then again, being happy is an emotion. GAH! ok,i start again.. why must there be sadness? oh god, this will never end.. haha.


sigh.. talking rubbish. unexpectedly after what happened, i'm feeling quite fine. i guess this wall that i've created abouth two months ago just went back up again. just when i was so happy, thinking that life was so perfect..


okay, maybe heather was right. maybe i brought this upon myself. she already warned me that it's not funny in the first place. but i thought i had nothing to lose. if i wasn't the one doing it, what if it really happened? involving a (HYPOTHETICAL!) girl which he just met or the same ol girl. you know, it doesn't really matter who the girl is. it's still not me right?


i'm not that emo like i thought i would be. so either the reality hasn't sink in yet or maybe this time, i'm more prepared and i'm stronger. or maybe i'm so hungry i can't think properly. haha.


we had apel lessons just now. what a freaking waste of my sleep. they could have #1 - send us the powerpoint slides and feedback forms to our email and #2 - make us hand in everything to our care person. EASY PEASY TITSY. make such a big deal out of nothing.. cheh, not everyone have cars to go school okay.


bleah. will start on my history research. CIAO-


i'll give you a benefit of a doubt to tell your side of the story to the world before i say anything about it. so don't say i'm playing unfair. and like i said, i'll always love you until you cheat on me again. go figure.

Labels: decisions, school, seth

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