It's been a long time since I got a nice long well-deserved hug. That was last Saturday. Boo. Poor Seth was so tired yesterday the whole time I was with him after (stupid stupid) climb, he slept like a baby.

Anyways, work is piling. I'm simply not motivated to do art work at home. Seriously. When my tablet's around, that's all I think about. I'm highly self entertaining..

I can't wait for the holidays. I wanna laze in bed, watch movies online. Haha. Yeah! Then join Seth for his POM lecture every Tuesday. And this must mean every Monday and Thursday we won't be meeting? For five weeks! Cos of climb. I hate it so much sometimes. (Total understatement.)

Been real cranky waiting for menses to come around. Urgh. I can feel it. Those hormones gettin rebellious.

I'm gettin plain insecure. He seems to be getting way out of my league everyday and I'm just plain unchanged. Feel like a makeover.. Argh.

Saw Syaf today. LIKE WHOA! She cut her hair short. And best thing was, she cut it herself so it was uneven and everything, but in a nice way! Then again, she's been blessed with tame hair. Boo. Jealous.

I can't wait for our 2nd anniversary. It's still over a month away! Huarrrggghh! Call me sad, but birthdays are so cliche. I don't get presents anyway, nor am I lookin forward to any. Haha. Damn, I should stop eating like a blackhole. I've got somethin special to save up for. Heh.

Currently listening to Robbie Williams to soothe myself. I'm always feeling uptight these days. Just can't bloody wait for this block to be over. But I curse the block system because one month is not enough to get to know people. Naomi is way cool. She has like, the nicest eyeshadow ever. Haha. And she's a Heroes freak too!

And she's damn right. TOO LITTLE PETER!! COME ON! But the electric-girl is hotstuff. I like blondes. Haha.

TP Rawks comin up. Heard they had -what was that called - huarrrrghhhhh... errr... Tp.. err err er errrr JAM & HOP! (-____________-) Since I'm not allowed to go clubs (you'll be surprised who doesn't let me gooo...) that is the only form of dancing I ever get to do in public. Not for the guys (I'll show 'em my Swiss army knife baby.) but to have fun with Heather! BUTTTT... I'm SO wanting to go to Zouk's Halloween party next year. Heather's idea and it's about the best thing that ever came out of her mouth. Haha.

Why oh why am I so anti-social sometimes?

I can't bloody believe it! I'm lying down yet I managed to pull some veins or something. Below my thighs. And i screamed in the most stoned way you can think of. You know, like how you scream when you get leg cramps. It's not painful just ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh kinda thing, ya know? No? Fuck you.

Why am I so bloody untalented. I can't draw, I can't paint, I can't make sculptures, I have no design identity, I have yet to find a comfortable place as a student of design school and that's one semester gone already. I better find myself soon. I can't be sucking at what I want to do!

I realised this has been quite long. I can be so irrelevant and random I tell you.

For today's "Special Occasion" speech for Public Speaking, I chose a Eulogy. And I had to show some pictures (or so I thought) so I chose my dear boyfriend. (touch wood, touch tree, touch bed frame) Haha. So I had some six pictures of Seth and some of us together. And then, when I told a joke, EVERYONE REFUSED TO LAUGH!! My ears turned pink okay. I found out why, when my speech ended and I took my seat.

I heard whispers of "Eh, you ask her lah." behind me. And Ed did ask me, "Eh, um.. That guy really dead arh?" I'm like, "WHAT! NO?! HE'S MY BOYFRIEND!" What theeeeeeee!! And Ridhwan (or how do I spell it) turned around to ask me, "Is that guy really dead?! *gasps* I so didn't know whether to laugh or be sad for you!"

JAW. FUCKING. DROP. It was only a speech for class, people. Haha, it was funny though.

EH! My God, did I just prayed for Seth to be dead? No right? If I did, GOD PLEASE, I TAKE IT BACK!

I'm growing tired of this. Haha. Have better things to do! Not better, just more important. And I really need to shit. Seth was super sweet to me today. =) Ciao-