For the i-don't-know-how-many times, my mummy had a talk with me. She emphasized once again about Religion issue. I had a strong feeling she found out. About us. Again. This time, for real.
Its not just a talk she had. She was warning me. Just like how my dad did when i took cab with him to school yesterday. He made me swear my life that i will Never date a Muslim guy.
Her efforts to screw up the racial issue were not helpful at all. She made up the voodoo thing. And the Having-a-lot-of-wives thing.

This is not the first time this happen. Mummy search my phone times and times again to find little pieces of evidences that i tried so hard to cover up.She read my diary which i never been updating for months. My auntie made every worse by reporting little details that she found out with my bastard cousin.

Mummy say that she heard stuffs about me. Stuffs that she tried so had to deny.She even tried to make my sister her spy. ''Don't be a disgrace to our family''. How many times have i been through this? I remove every details online.Pictures, friendster except for this blog. My mummy threaten that daddy will disown me. I find it so horrible to go through all this. I look into her eyes, kept my tears back and say,'' The fact is, I never had a Muslim boyfriend.So why bother and worry?''and smile.

pray for me.

i love him.
And i will try my best to hold on to it.
I am not giving up.
<3 happy 10 months and going.
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