I'm so fucking down fucking fucking down down..


I can't take it. April fucking hell sucks shit. I fucking fucking hate April, as easy as that.


To find out some stuffs just now, was not nice at all. I totally lost it. Went bonkers. He handled it way better than last time though.


But I can't take it. After all that I've been through to make it since last April, after the endless tears and heart aches I had to endure, I can't take another disappoinment..


It's too much for me to take.. Please don't do this to me.. I really can't take it.


You want me to trust you, so please don't do these kind of things to me.. You told me once last year that your biggest regret was "obviously to go and like her", so please keep that in mind..


Like I said, I just want to feel secure. I want to know that you're willing to put some "passion" into us..


I know for a fact, and I can assure you that I've given my 99% to loving you. There is no way I can even love you more than I've already had.


To accept you after all that you did, I hope it shows that I will really go through anything for you.


If you say you love me, please think hard and do what's best for both of us.. ='(


Please baby?


I don't know where we're heading right now. If we reach a dead end, I'll fucking tar another road out I tell you. All that I ask is for you to behave yourself and understand that you have a gf to take care of. Sigh..


Then again, all good things must come to an end..... ='(


ARRGGHHH noooo, what am I saying!


Just please.. Not us..... Not anytime soon..


I promise to sleep right now. And you keep yours.


Your love always,
mmrkr.

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