I wanted today to let everything settle out.


To those whom I had enough courage to face, you would have found out first hand about what happened. Except Nassie, I was waiting waiting waiting for her to come online but alaaaar, busy with her Aussie dicks kan. HAHA.


I REALLY AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO BE EMO NEH NEH HERE. Haha.


I guess Seth and I didn't work out. But we're too used to each other that the transition from lovers to friends was quite easy.


Okay wait, not really friends.... C'mon la, he's special kan. Will always be. Haha. =)


So right, if any girl try to be funny with him and play play with his feelings, I WILL STILL BREAK YOUR NECK BITCH!


Teman tapi mesra, Friends with Benefits. Lol, for now.


And there's no better way to end our some TWO AND A HALF YEARS of ups and downs. =)


Even though you stopped being in love with me, even though you chose climb over me, it's okay! The truth is, I realize even I deserve someone who's on the same page as me and is willing to love me whole heartedly.


Because you can love someone, and not exactly be in love with that someone. Maybe that's how he feels about me? Haha, perasan je kan. But that's how I want us to be like.


I know I still love him. Yes, I DO STILL LOVE HIM BITCHES and I really wish I didn't have to see us ending, but I'll live with it eventually. I can always love him and not be in love like I said above.


But hey what do you know, it is a happy ending after all!


And please eh, I'm naming MY kid Aidan. =)


IMPORTANT SHOUTOUTS:


FARHANAH: I'm so sorry that I was a terrible partner.. I didn't want to use this as an excuse but those few weeks of school was horrible and depressing for me. Dealing with this was not all LALALA happy like I am right now, I hope you understand. I AM SO SO SORRY I LET IT COME BETWEEN OUR WORK. I really am regretting it! Sorry sorry sorry. I feel horrible..


AFIZ: For never failing to understand whatever I'm saying and being the, "YEAH, I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS!!!!!" kind of friend. It makes me feel so much better that you know how it's like. =) Thank you thank you thank you.


THE AWESOME GUYS: Omfg, they are so fucking hilarious they never fail to make me happy again! I've been hanging out with them a whole lot and I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF LOSING THEM! =( I really really hope they understand the part that even though Seth and I are not exactly an item, but we're still close. I don't want them to feel awkward around me or us cos there's NOTHING to be awkward about in the first place. I hope they understand...


Like Seth said, what am I supposed to do? "Umumkan" that we're not a couple? (Ok, umum is so gincu btw. Haha.) But yeah.. Of all people, I hope they see that I'm happy and they'd still be my friends, with or without Seth. =/


Okay, maybe I'm over thinking this too much... (They're really important to me okay?!)


JX: THANK YOU SO MUCH BABE!!!! Thank you for making me realize that I need to be more mature and there are more important things in life, and bigger sacrifices for love. More than any of the sacrifices I've made. Your life is the living example of why I should be happy with where I'm at! =)


THANK YOU for tonight because you really made me happy again! FOR REAL!!! Thank you soooo much, and you know I'm ALWAYS here! Best friends right? =) Plus, I'm so goddamn glad that you're happy now! Even if it's right or wrong, I don't care. Your happiness is what counts.


LAST BUT NEVER THE LEAST HEATHER: I swear to God girl, I can never live without you bitch. There's no other woman in this world that I can ask for to be a better best friend. JX keeps asking me, WHERE'S YOUR GFS?! And I'm like, LOL, "I only need Heather."


AND NASSIE: I LOVE YOU JUST AS MUCH I WISH I CAN SPILL OUT MY HEART'S CONTENT TO YOUUUUUUUU! =(


And to SETH: You know you will always hold a special place in my heart. We will look back in happiness babe. =) TTM YAW~~~ WOOT WOOT! Lol, wtf.



I don't even have to pretend to be happy cos really, I am happy. And I want to stay this way too. Them guys play a big role I tell you. Haha.


(Damn, I hope PMS doesn't come and make me emo all over again, AIIEIEEEEKKKSS!!)


So thank you Ajit, Acap, Afiz, Azip, Vish and Zul. =) And more friends to come I hope. Haha.


Lenny babe, WORK IT OUT BEBEH! Hahahahaha. ;)


Off to Bangkok now, will be back on the 27th. =) Ciao! FAKYOOOOOOOOOO!


*hyperventilating*


Goodnight Michelin.. Heh.

Labels: MY HAPPY ENDING

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