I think it doesn't matter what happens in the day. If the night had a shitty ending, I'd be calling it a shitty day. Hah. It was so fuckin cold. I keep getting scolded and it's horrible to be stuck in the cold with someone who's not exactly warm.. =(


I'm awfully sorry to everyone. The blues are everywhere. I get moody easily these days. I'm fucking sorry, sometimes I just want to sleep or need someone to pay me a little attention but instead I get gently pushed away but it's still pushing me away nonetheless.


The littlest things irk me or spoil my mood, really. I'm sorry, it's like the endorphins in my brain are depleting. If you're irritated with me, then welcome to the club. Cos so am I. I'm so scared I will stay like this forever. Ugh.


I went quiet as I kept staring at myself in the mirror. I don't see anything special. I don't feel special. Like anyone you can pick out of the crowd. You don't make me feel special. Aren't I nothing? I feel like I'm nobody to you honestly. You can't even care about what I feel cos it's not worth the effort right? I know. Isn't she better? Won't your heart flutter if it's her you see in the mirror, and not me? So many questions run through my head as I imagine them others in my seat. You tend to fall in love with the wrong people. That's how it is.


I don't wanna talk about it. Ciao-


Heather's right. Love is too strong a word for anything.

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