♥Peepshow.

Heat.

It's amazing how when some things happen and I put my life into perspective, it makes me realise how unimportant some of my problems are. Okay maybe not amazing, just an eye opener.

I don't know how to describe today.

Was worried like a mother fucking fuck and shaking and so pissed off that it had to happen while we were ALL helplessly in the car and I was fucking driving summore. I swear to God, it was such a blur I don't even remember how I managed to get us there.

It was like a parasite eating me inside out at the back of my head throughout dinner but still, I honestly can't make out how I feel. And all of us partially felt guilt. That, is for sure.

Right now, things are settled down and I'm still mother fucking pissed off because I can't decided who's more selfish. Her, for doing this to all of us or me for being pissed that I didn't manage to get a nice last night out with my girls.

I still love you as it's my duty to do that, no matter what. But today, I lost all my respect for you. Because I can never imagine doing that to my own mother.

My head ache is killing me now. Nights.

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