I just blew out a SOLID SNOT. Hahahahah. Majorly gross. And half of it was like... Soggy solidified blood GROSS. Okay it's not solid lah... More like agar-agar. Hahaha. And yes, I squished it hahahahah can't help it!!


I miss family holidays, all seven of us. We're growing up too fast. Too caught up in our own lives.. :( I want my bro to be done with fucking National Service and for the rest of us to be done with school.. :( And maybe then we can have a major Eurotrip like we've always wanted.


I've always said I want to travel the world. But maybe secretly I just wanna travel with my family. I have the best times with them, I really do.


I'm really missing my parents... :(


P.S. I LOOKED REALLY FAT LAST TIME!!! Hahahahhahahah.
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I'll just make this short and sweet. I don't need your pity soldier.


FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE THEN.
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I'm seriously sick of boys. Uninteresting bunch of geeks. It's so bloody typical that the only things they'd ask is, "Have you eaten?" "Have you taken your medicine?" "What you doing?" BORRRRRRRINGGG. -______-


I know it's not fair, why can't I be the one coming up with topics? WELL BECAUSE I'M NOT INTERESTED! Obviously you're the one who started the conversation, which I don't give two hoots about, if you can't keep me interested then.... BUH BYE! I have no time for babbling idiots.


Seriously, is it so hard to find a man who can hold a decent conversation these days? Sheesh. I have nothing to lose I feel.. There're too many where you came from. I don't have time to waste hahahaha.


So I'll wait for the almighty question, "Are you bz?"


AND I GIVE A MOTHER FUCKING HUGE YES.


Hahahhahahahhahahahahhhahahaha no wonder I have such bad karma with the boys I actually care about. Hahahahha. So long suckerssss~
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CAN'T SHE JUST FUCK THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE?!


And I've been seeing her name here and there it's fucking annoying like a pest which WOULDNT. JUST. FUCKING. DIE. I fucking hate maids now seriously.


*Gouges my eyes to death*
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My frail heart can't bear to take any disappointments now.


It's better to keep out of touch, I'm not sure how much I can take.


Every breath is literally a struggle to live I tell you.
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I have got to start being pickier of who I date. Enough of _______. Well let's not hang our dirty laundry now shall we. :)


I stayed over at my cousin's and my Grandma threw a fit. What the fuck. So fucking WHAT if I have a house or not. They're family too what. Smelly fuck pissed off sia. And it's only because I took some major meds that knocked me out sia. Tsk.


Speaking of which, I'm still not doing any better. The moment I get better, it starts to deteriorate again and I feel like dying again. If I find out some mother fucker is doing some black magic shit on me, I'll go ape shit on your ass and staple gun your mother's crack hole.


But seriously, this has got to be the longest time I've been sick. Or at least as far as I can remember haha. It's gotten so much worse that I've gone deaf in one ear. Azip wouldn't like that..... (Inside joke) Hahahhaha.


I misssss youuuuuuuuuuuu.. Whyyyy chuu dont wannnaaa seeee meeeee.. First time eh stay home on a Friday haha. Okay time to knock out again. Ciao~
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Question, so what will happen if it's not me?


My heart will break but I will move on.


Hey, I tried. Relentlessly.


♥

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But still, at the end of the day (cos anger does dissolve you know... -_-) I'd be so bummed if it wasn't me. -_- Yes, I know. Even I wanna shoot myself. Everyone please queue up one straight line and take turns with the revolver. And no pushing please. Thank you. -_-


Some times I feel I should just fuck it and find someone good enough to make me totally forget about him. Even if it's temporary, it'll get through my thick skull some day, I'm sure.


But other times, I feel so helpless at the likeliness of losing him. I don't ever know what's on his mind. Not so much a communicator, that kid. -_- He's changed so much already, I can't help but freak out what. But what's forever constant is that everything I feel about him is pure. The anger, the disappointments, the loneliness, the happiness, the excitements (heh) is all only because I ____ him.


The ring is about to break.. :\ Maybe it's a sign.
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What's worse than a minah, is a minah wannabe. Right? That pretty much applies to anything. What's worse than a junkie, is a junkie wannabe. Let me just make this clear....


I MOTHER FUCKING HATE JUNKIES. FUCK YOU.


Tapi tu kau nye pasal ah eh. Asalkan kau tak kacau aku, aku tak kacau kau. Kau diam, aku diam. Fair pe? Kau nak mati siang bukan hal aku pe kan? Ah.


Tapi kalau lu nak heboh sangat, baik stoppit eh. Pkir cool sangat pe? Seblom aku pam muke kau sampai pecah, jadi vegetable dudok wheelchair nafas pakai tube, KAU BAIK DIAM. Baru kau tau sayor tu ape. JGN NAK POSER KAT SINI. Nak bangge2 kan ape siol. Prangai macam paham.


Senang je, kau taknak berok peh buah kene sumbat dalam pepek busok kau, kau tutop tu lobang lagi cantik eh boy. Members tak members, sayang tak sayang, mulot kau irritating pasal ni barang tetap berok jugak aku activate.


Junkies forever juboh bapak kau ah suar.


Edit:/
Nak bet lepas ni perang besar, tapi ego kau tetap besar sangat kau tak tau makne sorry. Dah masak ah babe.
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I'm currently addicted to Last Night on Earth by Green Day hur hurrrr.. I fucking miss them seriously. :( But East Jesus Nowhere is really the song which reminds me of the concert. Ahhhhhh I wanna watch them again! :(((


Currently waiting for my neh neh lecturer so I can consult her. Nabeh. I'm sickkkk... And still high fever. The worst part is definitely the intense head ache. My stomach is grumbling like mad but I don't wanna eat cos everything just tastes so rotten.


I hate being sick. I need someone to sleep on and hug me to sleep and rub my back and give me a massage. Hmmmmmph....


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I'm hacking my lungs out and I've no cough syrup God save me.


I thought after perspiring 80% of my weight off, I'd get better but nooOOoo~ the fever is back. Tsk. So damn annoyed sia.


I get ill whenever my mum goes to Dubai sia! Hahahah.


Seriously my chest and tummy hurts.. :( Ciao-
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I feel so happy. Now when I watch Green Day performances on the screen (like the Grammy's, which was fucking amazing, I will totally just die if the AI musical comes to Singapore.......) I feel right at home. I feel warm and fuzzy. I feel connected. BECAUSE I WATCHED THEM LIVE. They were really that good I'm not even fucking kidding man.


It's like I used to always feel like an outsider when I step into any Apple retailer. Until recently when I got my Macbook and once upon a time when I used the iPhone, I finally felt at home. :) The "ahhhhhhh..." Hahahha I don't really know how to explain it.


I don't care what anyone says cos they were seriously fucking phenomenal live. I wasn't surprised at all lah. Heh. I just fucking love them okay! Get it.
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