hais. to tell u de truth, i am disappointed. it was a promise dear..

woke up in de morn. going ica buliding to make ic. den mi mum oh so decided to take a train dere. wtf. no one was using de car waad. but nvm, i dun care ah. den she took her bloody own sweet time to get ready. at first, i was spose to meet earl st 12. but jus now, at 12, mi mum was still unbathed while i was ready to go. tsk. den she haven photocopy her n mi dad's ic. tu je la tau. procrastinate lyk nobody's business. tsk. den we she took a whole hour jus to work out de scanner. but god noes wads rong wid de thing. it aint werkin. so wasted one hr jus lyk dat. den de train ride was alredi almost an hr. hello, i live in woodlands, mind u.. urgh. den waited in line to take a passport sized foto was abt half an hr. den dey had to make a fuss abt mi hair. now, evrione noes dat mi fringe is forever covering mi eyes. duh? n dey wanted to see mi eyebrows. TSK. pissed me off big time. mi smile was so oh fake. um, took quite a while. den waiting n takin particulars itself took another half an hr. n by den, i lost contact wid earl.

told mum i was gonna go meet sumone at tamp. n she forced me to take a bus cos i had concession. wen i cld hev easily took a train. TSK!! but nvm. im a nice girl.. *fakesmile* god noes where 197 goes. den saw a train stn. so oh tempted to jus go take a train. dropped at paya lebar. den saw a bus stop. mi conscience told me to take bus. n walla! 21 was dere. im happy dat for once, i din lie to mi mum n in fact, does as she saes. ok, lame.

i was gettin rather desperate to contact earl, but to no avail. by de time i reached tamp, i duno wad to do. so i called khai. lazy bum. he din wana accompany me aniwhere. tsk! thanks aniwaes. for wad? i oso duno. he suggested i go call seth. but he 'warned' dat seth is jus as much of a lazy bum as him. lol. but i noe seth is alwaes nicer. (HAHA!) so yeah, called seth. n of cos, he was nicer. i threatened him dat i was goin his hse. n he went panicky. lol. n i actuali did manage to find mi wae to his blk even thou he gave a wide variety of blocks to choose frm. tsk. if not for dem, i wud hev cried in public. so aniwaes, seth accompanied me to de bus stop. n sucha good listening ear. thank you. i waited ard a lil while longer cos i still had hope dat earl might just call. but wen it reached five, i knew dere's no chance aniwaes.

im sure u had a valid reason. well, u better do. call me, dear.

haiis. went home aniwaes. bought de GoGo sausages. cos dats wad i do wen i duno wad to do. stuff mi face wid food. tsk.

disappointed disappointed disappointed. reali.

had soccer therapy. watched de charlton n man city match again. hah. it sorta helped. im feelin better now. but de onli smile i can manage is de fake one. de one dat billie joe taught me how to. im waitin for earl still. its amazing how i will tink dat evri fone call i get is frm him.

lets not drown into sadness. n misery. n den turn into an emo shit lyk khai. tsk! ohyea, talkin abt khai. he's sucha loser. time n time again, i told him not to do stupid things. yet, time n time again he stupidly does dose stupid things. idiotic huh? but a miracle happened. he finally admitted dat he was an insensitive bitch bastard. callin one fat doesn make u any more good lookin, khai. (a wise sayin frm my love.. heh) n how stupidly can u sae dat to de person u like. n esp wen she's not actuali fat in de first place. u can be so goddamn stupid sometimes, u noe.. n NOW, ur in misery. NOW, u wana sae sori. but NOW, is too late. if i were her, i wun be able to forgive u for all de god-noes-wad-else shit things u've done to her. u wasted a chance BIG time boy. but lenny, ive nvr seen khai dis apologetic. in fact, i tink its a miracle. GOD BLESS DE WORLD. n khai, stop being so stupid n THINK before u talk, pls! god noes how many stupid-s i called u, khai. haha!! stupid.

my psychiatrist is nice. thank u. im happy now.

n earl dear, god noes where u disappeared to. i jus hope ure alrite. but now, im tired. sick n tired of all i went thru todae. urgh. ciao-