PARDON ME AITE. MY COM CRASHED LA. *rollseyes*

AHHHHH! damn. i missed my blog like MADNESS ok.. lets hit it straight to the point yeah. before i forget all the going ons in my life. haha. wow. two weeks of not updating. i cant believe i survived. =))

dont ask me. i totally have no idea what happened. had loads of homework and band practices driving me half into insanity. no kidding. problems with 'sl' and 'need for respect'. i tell you, RUBBISH. kenneth, i told you this already. time and time again. dont try to even ask for respect when you abandoned your role as an sl. i am not speaking for myself. sian la. waste my time talking.. my breath *dramatically* my saliva! my life! .....

wenta SINGAPORE POLY. nabey cheeeeee.... im so sorry for dragging u there, heather. the day was totally blasted. wait, the whole of that week was blasted because khaii wasnt talkin to me and i absolutely feel like dying. i kept asking everyone to help me cheer him up since he treats me transparently. =( it got to a point where i just completely gave up. it was waaay too tiring to bother. so sorry.

back to my point. sp. wahlao! the whole campus is so goddamn boring. i should have went tp. nabey! and the whole trip made me wait hopelessly for mr.you-know-who till like 8p.m. from around six. i was so helpless without a handphone OK.

and i was late that day. so i lied to de stupid councillor that it was the bus' fault. of course he didnt want to believe me. but then i said the magic words.. he asked me, 'the bus from where wan?' i said casually,'at woodlands interchange..' SO PREDICTABLE-y, the four or five councillors there gasped and that one councillor i was talkin to said,'HUH?! U LIVE THERE?' dots... no lah. i live in tampines. i for fun go to woodlands and purposely come late so i can lie to you. what a bugger. *rollseyes* for the last time, YES DAMMIT. I LIVE IN WOODLANDS. i know its unbelievable but im sick of it already. tsk. oh, and bernard bought it. =)) he's nice, i swear. just make sure you're nice to him too yeah. =)

AAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! ADAM KHOO wkshp. OMFG. in the morning, i totally did not know what to expect. i expected it to maybe be boring or something. I AM WRONG. never judge anythin before you experience it. im telling you. the whole thing was AWESOME. first day was hmmm... i cant remember! tiring, yep. then, met.... *drumrollllls* AMIN! aahhhh! super duper uber kute OK! argh! he's the only malay trainer in his company. and how suaysuay LUCKY we got him! hahahaa! easily, he's my favourite trainer. i had loads of fun. khaii was still being a pain in the ass to me. ohyah. it was since he found out about me and him.. im sorry. oooh. then seth came to me and told me about khaii's decision with the band. then he said, he will surely cry sooner or later during the workshop. and me being me, told him to stay strong and smile. of course, i did everything with an encouraging smile. but the moment he left out of sight, i completely broke down. in other words, cried. my heart broke so bad. and it hurts so much. duh. when you lose somethin you love so much, i believe its just normal to cry. human reaction. oh wells. i just went cold hearted after that. i told myself that i wont ever cry over anyone that i dont care about, anymore. (but the i irony was that i cared. and i cried. understand? no? nvrmind, dumbass) but heck. I THANK GOD heather is always there for me. DAMN, as bitchy as she is (not to me though), i love her like madness! =))

i was late in the morning. lol. if yani is not late, its not yani. my mum forgot to wake me up aite. and lucky none of the trainers scolded me. hahahahaa. =)) gary rocks. and wayne is just working too hard for his money. HAHAHAA. then later that day, i was chillin with nas and heather at the avt steps. then khaii came to me, hugged me and said,'IM SORRY..' aaaaaawwwwwww!!!!!! it takes SO MUCH GUTS for him to say sorry. what more, a hug. (otherwise, he'll fake-disgust to even shake my hand. he's back like that now. haha) wow. i found new found respect for khaii. im not ashamed to say it. he's become a nicer person. i'd like to think that the workshop contributed to that. =)) but then, to my horror seth saw me hug khaii. i was umm, confused. dont know what to do. so i just smiled awkwardly. later that night, i asked seth abt it, and U KNOW WHAT HE SAID?! hahahahaa! =)))) he said,'i didnt mind at all. it just shows that he changed. for the better. he matured. maybe cause of adam khoo (the workshop)' AWWWW!!! yays! then, the infamous 'crying session'. HEY! dont blame amin aite! he was just doing his job, he WAS NOT making you cry. and i curse the kuku bird who scolded him because that kuku said to amin that his job was to 'entertain them' and that they 'were paid to do that'. I'LL WHOOP UR ASS UPSIDE DOWN IF I FIND OUT WHO U ARE. what an asshole! argh.

anyways, some people called me cold hearted. black hearted. just cause of what? i didnt cry? what rubbish. i tell you this once and for all. they were messing with your mind. you havent mastered how to control your thoughts and emotions. if you think about it, do you know why you're crying for? because you feel guilty. because you regret how you treat your parents. so what do you do? cry over it? NO. you make a promise to yourself to never do it again. is there ever a use to cry over spilt milk? =)) ive been heartbroken, and i mean heartbroken, once. and i know how much it hurts. and all the tears. it didnt make the situation any better. so what was the use right? so that is why i didnt cry. i DO have feelings ok. and anyways, i was busy consoling my bebeh to not cry. HAHAHAA. wei, not only him cried okays. almost everyone did. girls AND guys. it didnt make them gay. it made them human.

ohyah. me and heather went to temasek poly for a while before amin took over. and i tell you, WE DAMN WELL HAD FUN! whoooooo! im seriously considering the design school there. i have totally dropped my thoughts of doing business cause i just dont see myself doing it. ya know.. i really wanted to go sp. but the campus didnt even have one freaking building for design school. and you might think im just 'following my friends'. IM LAUGHING AT YOU. because why would i want to wasted another three years travelling to tampines again. make sense? unlike people, i have ambitions, i have my own opinions, i have my own mind. thank you.

last day of adam khoo workshop. awwwwwwwww. the closing ceremony was really AWWW. i actually presented oks. it takes guts. i swear. and there they were. people were crying again. haiyooo. for that day and after the 'crying session' the day before, i went around with arms open, saying, 'anyone needs a hug??' haha. crazy. it was a real blast. i learnt alot. fun joy laughter studies. everything. i swear by it, adam khoo will change you. for the better. at least for me. lol.

damn pooping out. so the nex day went school at 9a.m. YEAH RIGHT. i met seth in the morning at lepak. we had loads of time to kill. lol. then coincidentally met khaii and acap. lol. then wen jie. that wj and seth is forever fake-fighting. so kute i tell you. i love it when guys play sissy fights. super funny. HEH.

tonnes of homework. had erlis free period. khaii was made the chairperson. *JAWDROP* actually it was the week before. and because of that, we still had a quarrel. lol. i mean, it was a misunderstanding. but i was sincerely happy that he became the chair. i knew how much he wanted it. and my friend, i know how much love you have when you look at her. you cant fool me. nor seth. heh heh heh. when you just look at her differently, i know shes not just a friend. hahahaa. congrats. =))

DENTAL. nabey! ive NEVER hated dentists before. but that one was just so ARGH. tooooot. but the weird thing was, i never noticed the pain until the dentist said to me,'girl. you alright?' DAMN. he should have just shut his trap! then, i returned again later that day. to fill my tooth. and up till today, i still cant bite with the right side of my jaw or i will scream like a man. lol. you know the icky feeling of biting on metal? yah.

nabey. i just couldnt take it anymore. i totally knocked out. i had to go home man.. no band for me. i felt like dying okays. i felt so trapped. i alwaes loved when de 2.05 bell rings to signal the end of school. but that day, i felt that there was no difference. 2.05 so what? still got band. super tiring. and pms is driving me mad. so sorry heather.

THANK YOU the people who wished me. lol. super funny. thank you to lih yuan, (i see her face i will LAUGH OUT LOUD man. not because she look weird or anythin. just our lil thing heh) ili, heather, ikaaaaa but heck, the best was wid him la. heh. and my heart melts when he sings his voice sore and playin the guitar. oh my gawd. i have a thing for musicians. heh. that night was just plain wonderful. we just sat and talk. and totally didnt realise the time and reached home at midnight. lol. damn, we just talked and talked. nothin felt more natural. for once, i didnt have to be fake. i was myself. and the silence aint awkward. lalalaaaaaa. =))

then yesterday. he came to woodlands instead of me going to tampines. AWWWWWWW. i went to a place in woodlands that i have NVR knew about before. and most shockingly, its so freakin near to my house! hahahaa. aniways, we walked around aimlessly and the sun was jus plain sadistic. then took a bus. and walked along this 'canal' thingy. and walk and walk and reached this *GASP* park. the was a huge pond. and nice benches and a mini bridge and the water was murky but glistening and you can see the reflection of the whole place there upside down. it was just unexpected. its quite hidden. =)) wow. it was nice. yet that mister was complainin. cause he was wearing a black polo tee and felt so HOT. lol. my fault? NOOO. but i hug him. and kept him warm. my fault? YESS. haha. ok, lame.

then wenta get slurpee at 7-11. and i brain freezed myself. HAHAHAHAAAA!!!! he said i shouted like a man. well, thank you. heeeee. was a realli nice day. i loved it la. and poor khaii.. i will not elaborate la. u super suay know... haha. come to woodlands next time. LOL.

i am violent too. thank you. i should stop being petty. or maybe we should compromise. u stop talkin abt her, i stop being so jealous. aite? haiyoh. heck la. =) lalalalaaaa.

and today. i feel like i am on top of the world. ive completed all my hw. and i can chill the whole weekend! WHEEEEEEEEEE!!! hahahaaa. oooh. i thank khaii for being able to accept me back as a friend through all the shit i gave him. im truly sorry. im sorry i said i love you in front of everyone at the adam khoo closing ceremony. HAHA. was damn funny oks! chill. i will be here if you want to rant, gush, awwww or anything about her. but as a friend. heh. lalalaa.

im off to surf the net for the million net-years ive lost out on. heh. currently in love. wheeeeeee. ciao-