OKAY OKAY. i know its a bad habit.. but once i get onto doing it, i just go on and on and on out of control. so yeah.. nas' comment on khaii's blog urged me to take yet another look on his archives. i ended up reading the whole history. boy. its horrible. all the mean things that he said to me. how much i tried to salvage our friendship. i said oh so many embarrassing things to him just so i could have him back as my friend. i still dont understand why we have this love-hate relationship. heh. most of the times, hes still my fav male buddy la. but looking back, we came really far and i wonder if the past will always be the reason why our friendship wont be flawless anymore. after all, time heal all wounds. but the scars remain. i wonder how it'd be if we just didnt fight in the first place. in other words, if only i hadnt get on with danial. and made the ex come between us. i hate the times where i use to wake up, with that horrible feeling in my stomach. cos i was fighting with the one i 'love' and i was losing khaii. the rose among the thorns? SETH. he was there for the thick and thin. for all the late night consoling while my heart was pining for the ex. oblivious to him. for the cryings and laughters. for the hugs and the breakdowns. from a friend to my one and only. seth syg.. i really miss you la. sigh.. =x heh. okay, im seriously yakking aimlessly. its three in the morning already! geez.