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Heat.

it's so goddamn hard okay. yesterday i woke up at 1pm, crying. i realised there was nobody home. so i just cried myself to sleep. then i woke up at 4pm, crying again. i tell you, i've never cried so much in a day. it's not only tiring, but it seems to be the cause of my headaches too.

was acting tough and all cos i have this ego problem that i don't want to appear weak in front of people. then i finally couldn't take it. when he was about to go off already, i cried like a pathetic baby in his arms. and whenever i think about him, i'll start tearing la. it's hard to think about how lonely he is there. and how much i miss him. and how it'll be NEXT raye before he'll come home again. ='(

sad stories aside, seth will start school tomorrow! then at least can meet heather or seth for my 3 hour break. shittiest timetable i tell you. i couldn't even be bothered to get angry.

my grand total of duit raye.. hah! cannot tell you. i won't even tell seth cos i know he'll give me that look. that look of.. damn, i can't explain it without making him look bad. haha! joking.

poor boyfriend. he skipped jalan raye with his family to help fad surprise fahmy's birthday. i told him to ask khai handle it but he said he promised fad already. and he just had to add in that he won't care if it's me or his mother or anyone else, but once he's made a promise, it's a promise.

bleah?

i'm getting sick of not meeting him. four days already. friday could have met him. but apparently hafiz and zul beat me to it. haha.

i can't help but wonder how stupid of me to drop by heather's shop when she wasn't working. twice already okay.

i found my lost raye packets. and man, it feels good to find money eh?

damn la, i can go on. but i haven't been feeling well and no boyfriend to rub my aching menses back. sigh.

so much work to do. but no motivation and also can't seem to be bothered when final submission is go goddamn near.. -.- ciao-

Labels: family, random

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