Today was super damn kanasai.


Phek Gek thinks she's so funny. One of the classmates emailed her and an auto reply came back stating that she's away and she'll be back on the 31st.


Okay, so we take it as there's class.


And we journey all the way to school (for once I'm god damn early) only to wait till 9.30 and find out she's STILL nowhere to be seen. GAH!! Time waster.


Bad. Bad. Woman.


Super kanasai.


Last night was super super emotional. I just felt so... Hmm.. I don't know how to describe it. I just desperately needed to talk to someone.. And who else can I share such deep feelings.


So deep that it takes a level of experience to really understand. Oh God, why must I be so complicated and secretive about everything. Even with myself and my own boyfriend!


Of course, he couldn't digest all that I was saying and simply take it as I was going through a crazy moment. I don't blame him.


Thanks for staying up babe. =)


He's off to JB for the night. Not back till.. not too sure..


Today the whether was so hot like kanasai that our bloods began to boil on each other. Haha. Sorry bout that.. Heh.


I was just listening to Maroon 5 and I finally decided to check out the lyrics of Nothing Lasts Forever. I liked that song in particular. From the first time I heard on Farhanah's phone, I fuckingly loved it. And when I actually read the lyrics just now, I just started bawling.


No song has ever made such an impact on me. Seriously. I guess everyone has their own song and Nothing Lasts Forever is definitely it for me. It seems like they experienced what I did and decided to make it into a song. Of course, some of the little parts wasn't relevant.


Seth babe, I so strongly suggest you listen to this song.


I couldn't help myself. While reading, it just transported me to the past. When he was trying to pick up the pieces, and I kept pushing him away. He says the still loves me but I couldn't accept it. The words are way too real. And I succumbed to my intense feelings and just kept crying.. (You weak woman!) And the song kept on repeating and repeating.


Anyways, have you guys ever experienced a song which reminded you of something. Like how Spice Girls and Backstreet Boys SOOOOO reminds me of my childhood. Haha. I bloody love Spice Girls okay. I spent the whole of yesterday watching Spice Girls videos on YouTube. Heh.


Okay, what I really wanted to say is.. There are three songs which reminded me of the April incident. Sweet Escape, Big Girls Don't Cry and Don't Matter. Seriously, I even reffrain from listening to those songs cos it's such a strong reminder. Maybe cos I kept listening to them during that period of time. Haha.


No Seth for tonight. And that's never a nice thing.. Miss him already.. =(


And recently I realised I like Boy more than Girl. Since the freaking bitch peed on my bed. Seriously. Haha. But I've always liked Boy better anyways. He's garang but a gentleman! He will protect Girl and let her have the food first cos they share the same bowl. =)


And I know when they play catching, he will let Girl win. Haha. Though their tag games are getting a tad too violent recently.


I want to eat goreng pisang ah. Bye.


Hmmm.. Hope Seth msgs me from JB tonight. =) Ciao-

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