Phew what a night.


The reason secrets were meant to be secrets, is cos it ain't a pretty picture when it's out. Right? So maybe you should have guarded your secrets better. ORRRR. Don't lie and not have secrets at all in the first place! Psh psh, you've been very naughty. Hahah. Bye.


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I miss my dad. I miss our 8pm dinners that would consist of me talking about taboo topics which makes everything livelier. Heh. I miss bonding over food. WE ALWAYS HAVE THE BEST FOOD! (Thank God I shit a lot haha.) I especially miss riding in the car and the feeling that in that little space of me and my family of 7, I'm safe. And I know they love me as much as I love them.


They are the ones who will never disappoint me. :) Can't wait for him to come back in two weeks and we'll all have a getaway to Jakartaaaaaa! And then to Sarawak! (I'm guessing no shopping there, just EAT EAT EAT!) ANDDDDD GOD I HOPEEEEE EUROTRIP.


It's right there sia... Tickets are ready to be booked. Money's all settled. Itinerary all sorted out. AHHHHHH BUT FUCKING. SCHOOL! Knnbccb. So closeeee... So fucking closeeee I can smell the bagels and the coffee and the pasta (whaaaaat they have Italian restaurants in Paris also what!) and the delicate desserts and ahhhhh...


Please please please let me have just one fucking free block. JUST ONE. PLEASE. I promise you can grill me for the rest of the blocks. (I'm kidding, I'll stab you off my back.) Please please pleaseeee.....


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My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.


And that's why I'll be okay......... :)
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