I was already asleep pretty soundly. It's 3 am now. And suddenly, I feel like crying so badly.. I was dreaming of a typical day out with the guys. Nothing sentimental, just the usuals.


I woke up, and it just hit me hard.... I'm never having that again. They're leaving me for NS. And we're all gonna have to start being adults now. I'm more scared than anything.. I'm fucking not ready for this at all... :(


Which adult uses "fucking" as much as I doooo? :(


I already realised this sometime last year, how little time I had left to really enjoy with them. Which saw me in fighting with the non-understanding, ridiculous, totally unreasonable ex a whole lot. I have no regrets for putting my friends first. I know myself best and I knew someday this day would come and it's gonna hurt like a bitch..


I miss every single fucking one of you and I honestly wish not much of your characteristics are gonna change. No matter how bad it is.. I love you just the way you are.


I hope NS would still allow you to reply me at 3 in the morning when I need you most, and I'd be able to text you anytime when I need a rant. Then maybe I can taunt you about not getting to watch World Cup. Hahah. Haiiiiih... :(


But most importantly, please don't forget me..
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