♥Peepshow.

Heat.

To Lenny + van Laackers:

Who saw me through my good, bad and ugly days.

Quite literally hahah.

To my fellow Supers:

Who truly are my saviours. ♥

To my (un)mok + boncet + botak boys:

For letting me be your spoilt brat, every single time. Heh!

FYI, I don't like ya'll botak.

To Seth:

For whom I've honestly lived the past 5 years for.

And to my family:

For whom I'll live the rest of my life for. :)

Cheers to all the good memories and I'm leaving the rest in 2010. So yeah, that's it. Actually.... I'm moving outta here. Heh. I'm guessing it's about time also. What with all the sentiments attached here =| Loved you while it lasted. So for the last time..

CIAO MAFAKERS!

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I swear if there ever was a zombie infestation, I'd be the first to go. I get infected by other people so easily! I rarely get sick on my own cos it's usually the doing of other people that gets me sick. :/ Or maybe in a twist of the plot, I'm one of those few immune to the zombie virus eh. Hehehe.

Oh my. Maybe I really am turning into a zombie! The sore eyes and I swear I tasted blood when I coughed! In that case, it's a dream come true. I've always loved zombie movies heh.

Hopefully I'm one of the cool ones. Like the sprinting Resident Evil ones who are too fast for yo. Not like the boring dumbass Walking Dead ones who can get fooled just by spreading zombie juice on your clothes sheesh. Or maybe the Witch from l4d, bitch is damn lepak and it's what I've always wanted. One stupid mat kacau me, I'll kill him in one hit wuhuhu!

Okay seriously now. I'm missing you sorely and my eyes only got worse last night. :( I'm gonna miss the blinking lights your messages leave me. I don't even know why I'm putting myself through this when I just wanna get better. Stupid sore eye.

I swear it was better yesterday. It's almost 7. Goodnight zombies.

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If only you actually made time for me, you'd see that I'm the happiest when I'm with you. Really.

I don't want it to ennnnnnnnndddd. Please no pleeeease no no no no no no no :(

But I suddenly wake up and realise it was only just a dream. The end.
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Christmas gave me flu, dry cough, sore eyes and now I lost my nametag. That's ten fucking bucks down the drain. Plus, it's raining outside so I should be at home, SLEEPING.

I can't say this enough, who the HELL gets married or hold a function on xmas?! I mean gimme a break! It's the holidays! Sheeesh.

And the dumbass who's making the announcements keeps saying "xmas" as literally x-mas. What the hell. Why do they choose either pasar aunties or pinoys to make the announcements?!

I'm feeling sour about the ten bucks and so bloody ticked off at the prospect of having cacat eyes on my holiday photos.

Bleaaaah. Come back already bb.. :(

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And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Fuck you!

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It's amazing how when some things happen and I put my life into perspective, it makes me realise how unimportant some of my problems are. Okay maybe not amazing, just an eye opener.

I don't know how to describe today.

Was worried like a mother fucking fuck and shaking and so pissed off that it had to happen while we were ALL helplessly in the car and I was fucking driving summore. I swear to God, it was such a blur I don't even remember how I managed to get us there.

It was like a parasite eating me inside out at the back of my head throughout dinner but still, I honestly can't make out how I feel. And all of us partially felt guilt. That, is for sure.

Right now, things are settled down and I'm still mother fucking pissed off because I can't decided who's more selfish. Her, for doing this to all of us or me for being pissed that I didn't manage to get a nice last night out with my girls.

I still love you as it's my duty to do that, no matter what. But today, I lost all my respect for you. Because I can never imagine doing that to my own mother.

My head ache is killing me now. Nights.

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Someone uploaded one of my favourite Sheila on 7 song. And it brought me back to more than five years ago, when me and my (then) best friend were lost in the huge Pasir Ris Park. I started to get frantic (and a bit miang) so the first person I called was you. It was always you. The first person I look for and wanna be with, for whatever whenever. (Mostly when I need directions hahahahah.) I can only hope I love my husband that much.

Ohyah, back to the story. So while we were on the phone I randomly sang Sephia to fill up the still night and then you suddenly said "Eh, don't sing that song. Lagu hantu!"

And I believed you. Actually, even up till today I don't know whether it's true or not leh. Can someone please tell me? Hahaha. The trust was undeniably strong and I simply believed you.

I've been thinking of you so much these days I zone out during work a lot. Hahah. I know of a million things to say and do to make things better but my ego is too huge to let me bring it down.

Oh wells. I thank God that I'm blessed with awesome girlfriends and funkiest mates ever. They get me through, every single time. :)

And I think I should put a stop to this. Someday, when I'd have enough of this emo-ness (God knows when haha) and finally want to actually move on, I'm so leaving this space.

Okay now I'm in a dilemma. My stomach is hungry but my eyes are heaaaavy..

Hahaha. MAKANNNNN!

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