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Heat.

i tried to slp. but not once will i ever get to fall asleep. my eyes r tired. mi body is tired. mi brain is tired. but i-cant-slp. urghs. it will kill me.

u noe wad, actuali, i duno wad happened miself. im tired n confused n upset (at myself) n god-noes-wad-else, all rolled into one. evrithing around reminds me of him. reali. urgh. screw de knot in mi guts. irritating. its causing mi insomnia.

more den anithin else, i wish to start over. i wanna noe all mi mistakes. evri single thing dat hurt u. in any way. if dere is a time i dun believe i cant get ani more upset wid miself, its now.

n u noe i am not alrite wen i start to talk cheem stufs n jus dun seem to make sense. in other words, emo. urgh. i hate dat word. its so not me.. plus, my english is turnin horrible too. dat a2 seem so far awae. tsk. wtf am i tinkin abt o's rite now. dots..

times lyk dese, i reali miss heather. i wana give her one big fat hug. its been so oh long since i last saw her. im grateful for tbd too. u guys.... thank u.. but i reali wana be alone now. im not pretending to be ~~emo~~ anything.. its jus wad normal ppl want wen dey're ~~fucked up~~ screwed ; privacy.

wads wid mi mother. shes pissed wid me?! if deres anione dat shud be pissed, ITS ME. she doesn noe dat she's caused all dese riot. (ok, mebbe im jus trynna blame anione but me..) all dese unhappiness. n wen its clear dat ive been cryin, (well, red eyes n rudolph's nose isn easy to hide) she can still scold me.. but, u noe wad. I DUN CARE ANYMORE. i dun even care if mi sis is readin dis. i noe she wld.. one word mother, WATEVER.

but still, for nas's sake.. i'll do her well, thingy..

rules of da game..(wad rules? wad game? tsktsktsk!)

number1 - post five weird or random stufs abt urself

number2 - at de end of de post, list 5 ppl whom u want to take de quiz

number3 - leave a comment "you are tagged" in deir blog and ask dem to read ur blog for rules

eh, den can sabo back de ppl hu tag u anot ah..

i will follow rule number1.

1. i hate crying. or crybabies. or anything yg sewaktu dgnnye. but i jus found out dat i can cry but i cant last past one hr. i'll poop out.

2. umm.. i hate guys hu r full of self praise n EGO. eh, hu doesn rite..

3. de onli ppl i treasure alot rite now is earl (de most, duh?), heather, khai&seth n um.. tre cool.

4. i love music. i love de sax. i absolutely love de bass more. but i cant sing for nuts. no, reali.

5. im a hopeless romantic. i will go awwwww at evri sweet thing 'de guy' does for 'de girl' in dose movies.. esp 50 first dates u noe..

i will also follow rule number2. tsk.

1. ~~heather~~ since i duno wad happen to her blog, yak den.

2. hmm..ERIN!

3. im runnin out of ppl.. ying ying? LOL. i like her blog la.. chao funny.

4. mi dear zaaa.

5. hyde kor..

rule number three. haiya. nas ah.. lols. in a while, i'll do it..

god, ive nvr followed so many rules mi whole life. haha. im exaggerating la.. tsktsk.

im tired. mi brain is not functioning properly la.. URGH. i wana go talk to heather la.. nitenitex. ciao-

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