helllllooooos. =))

seth was late. super late. very late on tues. hrmf. and then he smiles and all the ARGHness disappears. d'oh! -.-

school. as per normal. p.e. was so ARGH as usual. teo made us do, what else? push ups and whatevers to strengthen our i-duno-what. ya ya. i will thank him one day.

then had band. how was it? hmm. i was reluctant to play, really. but once i did, i never wanted to stop. and fine, i admit. kenneth is making an effort to help as much as he can. penny came! =)) neh! how come i never know about warehouse sales. grr. and i so love her cam. heh. anyways, had a reflect session after band. pris asked, if we still wanted the concert.. one by one, people raised up their hand. till almost everyone. i felt pressure to raise up my hand too, but then, i would be two faced. i know that deep in me, i wont want to show people this standard of a gold band. so i didnt raise my hand. its not that i dont want a concert. hello, my last year? of course i want?! tsk. but i dont want to make a fool of myself to perform with players whom cant even play the first page of 7th nite. nabey.

so today, in band.. i just spent my time with nadiah. who wants to perform but like i told her, cant make it. sorry. im not being negative ok. im being realistic. we learn to play almost the whole of 7th nite when? last year?! i just felt so pressured and ARRGGHH ok? had to vent it out but sadly, there wasnt anyone. he was pissed himself. i didnt want to push it. it'll turn nasty..

so i just took super deep breaths and do what i do when im super trying to underhand a situation; clench my jaw. so now it hurts like hell. arghs. and then, this kid. was trying to be funny. i was so stressed that i just sat down. sax section were outside the 2nd floor sci lab. and these just-sluar-panjang (sec 3s) losers were walking past the detention rooms on the first floor and went 'shhh! shhh!' at the 'noise' we were making. FUCK LA. i just stared at him and felt like killing him with all the anger in me. then surprisingly, i said, 'WHAT! FUCK U LA. FUCK UR MOTHER CIBAI!' hello! i was stressed ok! then he looked back at me in disbelief. AARGGGGHH. im super super pissed ok. fucking immatured. IM ASHAMED to be of the upper sec level with fuckers like these. but haiyah. just first month. must be jakon. to those who terase, (get offended) i say, TOO BAD. if you know your're matured, you wont be offended. really. and blame wen jie for teaching me 'fuck ur mother cibai'. its about the only vulgar i love to use now. heh. can i beat someone up....

anyways, yesterday night, i was with seth. at around eight? i was standing with him below this block la. i dont know which. we were in the school uniform. then this man walked past.. and stared. seth told me. but i didnt care much. then his facial expression changed. that asshole was still staring. ALL THE WAY TO THE OTHER BLOCK! about a good 100m away! then he took out his handphone and started talking to it, all while still staring at us. *insert vulgar* cannot even spend time with him ah?! *insert vulgar* arrrghh! so we walked away. and tried to avoid hafiz's block. LOL. long story.

it totally spoilt his mood. and no doubt, mine. i hate staring incidents. i dont mind with mats. (not that i like it la!) or with friendly people. BUT NOT with some grown men! someone's husband or father. NABEY. seriously, i prefer any other types of staring incidents rather then old ah peks. *insert vulgar* (ok, this is the last time in this post that i will say fuck. aite?) FUCK THEM.

im incredibly vulgar because im pissed. argh. its ok. SuperSewii doesnt get stressed easily anymore. nyahahaa. as said by khaii. he tried to irritate me but because he didnt manage to irritate me, i irritated him by not being irritated by his irritation. YAYS. understand? just that at the end of the day, I WIN. =))

jason mraz concert. CAN I GO?! AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!

for valentines day, i will not be my valentine's valentine. his valentine will be......... his cadets. *claps sarcastically* but though i pity myself, im not really bothered. lol. i swear. because valentine's day is just another special day but he makes everyday a special day. hehehee. i dont lie okay.. =))

yays. i got very little homework currently. *TING!* and im goin to ace all my tests. ss math and malay! WHEEEE!! =)) lalalalaa. ok, high. ciao-

(im avoiding to write about soccer at all costs. unless there is good news. heh.)