today was a great happy day! though i was rather upset that we didnt eat at seth's pizza hut. its ok. sadly, swensens was a huge ripoff that i had to share the meal with azip. the pasta, we shared. the ice cream, we shared. i was so cheapskate.

both of us kinda sad life. partner-less. the significant other is always with work and whatnots. i dont want to dwell in his case. haiyo.

then we went to play pool at downtown. azip taught me. nice of him. and i beat him once! HAHA! hope to get better la. ive been having a great day balls. haiyo. i cant stop saying this to myself; "if only seth was here.." HAIYOOOO.. =(

haiyah. deep inside i feel so BLEAAAHK.. missing him and such. not a good feeling. and knowing myself best, im so afraid that i will stray away. or our relationship is strain. and if i start working, it will just make the situation a whole lot worse. haiyo.. even before i start working, I QUIT. i cant stand the thought of losing him. but as of now, im trying to have as much fun as possible hanging out with the guys. even if seth is not with me. without heather, they are all im left with. and im content. haha.

at least afiz got raghuram. BWAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA! sorry la bro. i just had to say that. hahahahahaaa...

truth be told, im actually quite sick of seth working till late. and the worst part is that i cant complain! and i wont. cos i know hes tired. i know he needs to eat. i know he needs the rest. i know its hard for him to even message in the crowded train. (personally, i have no problem with that..) i know its hard to message while walking. (ditto..) i know i know i know i know i know my foot. i dont tell him this, but im sick and tired. seriously, he said things will be better after the hectic o's. for a moment, it was. then he said, things would be better after prom night, after all the rush to get our clothes. and now what? ironically, he will always say that its for the good of us. its so that when we go out, he can treat me all those nice things. haiyo.. you cant buy love honey. nah-uh. will money replace the times that you spend working than with me? god, am i being selfish here? hope not. at least i dont ever complain to him cos i know it will only burden him. why am i saying all this here anyway? haiyo. i dont know where else to turn to. afiz is watchin the big chelsea-arsenal match. and so is khaii. so i have no one to talk to.. haiyo..

seriously, money is the root of all evil. arghs..

dear god, please let our relationship withstand all these obstacles coming our way. let my heart stay faithful to him. make me be a more understanding person to him. make us happy the way things were. please.. i will do anything for him. just lead my heart the right way.. AMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN.

haiyah... goodnight la.. ciao-