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i was too flustered up to blog just now..

haiyo..

straight to the point eh. i ter-found, ter-watch the video where seth was being fainted by two guys. i think the two razifs? i can't make out who. nothing against them, really. i was horrified.

petrified.

i swear, i was left shaken when seth really did faint. all done on purpose.

what's the motive?

my heart broke. why, you ask? i went through so much pains to take care of him. and i feel as if this is how he repays me.

to see him in such a vulnerable state, it shattered me.. his head drooped to one side. his hands hung loose.. if not for the guys' support, he would have fallen like a piece of bird shit. literally. his knees lost muscle support. he fell to ground. they slapped him awake. people laughed.

laughed.

LAUGHED.

while there i was left, shaken. teary eyed at khaii's handphone. trying my best to hold it back in. choking it at the back of my throat. of course it all ran amok in the end.

why did they laugh?

what was so funny?

what humour do they get from fainting the person i loved so much. whom i care more than anyone else. perplexing..

why?

i wasn't angry at all. i was already beyond that phase. i went through that a month ago. i got angry enough with him over this certain episode.

now that i saw it with my own eyes, im out of words. im shocked in disbelief. scared stiff. i don't even know what it is that im scared of!

watching the video made me shake more than opening my result slip.

sumpah dengan nama Allah.

as i'm typing this, i'm shaking too. i watched the video only once. i don't dare to watch it again. my heart is pounding against my rib cage. i'm going crazy here.

i don't get the joke.

what's so funny! =(

oh god, my reaction was x315763457358750 worse watching the video than waiting for my results.

god, i'm still shaking..

on a sliiightly lighter note, i did rather well for my 'o's. reached my target of 14! like i said so yesterday.

seth and i got the exact same points. our cca points pon the same. DON'T get me started on english ok. just DON'T.

i'm content. i didn't cry. there was no need to right?

i will say thank you to all my well wishers. in no particular order cos they just popped out of nowhere.

-heather

-razif kassim

-razif ramli

-afiz

-nassie

-jasmine tan

-joycelyn

-my mother

-my grandmother

-my older sister

-my younger sister

-my SIBLINGS LA!

-my cousin

-jian xiong

-oops, seth

-nadhirah!

-ili

-khaii

-neni

-lenny

-acap

last but not least

-seri

actually i must look at my yearbook to actually remember all that wished me congrats or good luck. haha.

nas: B-B-B-BULU BULU BULU!!

HAHAH! SHE SO HAIRY SIA! STILL WANT TO POST A PHOTO OF HER (PURPOSELY) SUCKED-IN HAIRY STOMACH. OH GOD. IM CRYING, HOOTING, FALLING OFF THE CHAIR, LAUGHING!

besides the point yang dier tu itam maplek.

BEBULU SIAAAAAAAAAAAALL. omg! it cheered me up slightly.

konon sexy ah pakai bikini. ya allah..

BEBULU!!!

dah la tak jambu, BERbulu plak tu..

eh, MY MALAY A2 OK!

besides being slightly raving mad+confused at seth, i'm so proud of him! he passed EMATH! first time since pri school ok! and straight to B3. =) and he got a distinction in comb sci! SO PROUD OF HIM CAN?! his english same as me.. (ok, enough before i get depressed.. and i mean seriously...) POA B3 ah. okok. f&n dah goner. fail. haha. all in all, im just so proud of him la! U GO BABE! =))

i'm glad we both got same points. so there will be no competition. and we're equally smart. AWESOME. we're meant to be.

should be la..

okay! this turned out too long. haha. tomorrow dmn sch bazaar. =) officially my alma mater. CIAO-

Labels: bitch, results, seth

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