♥Peepshow.

Heat.

Here's your super belated birthday card.

Hope you like it.

Bye.

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GOD. My. Back. Is. Killing. Me. I'm going to have to kill someone now. Hmmm...

Ideas on How to make me feel better.
1. Print an A3 Miley Cyrus photo and throw darts at her face eh. Heh hehh.
2. Do a Miley Cyrus voodoo doll. (Hmmm how to get strands of her hair...)
3. Use a Miley Cyrus photo to cover the bottom of the cats' litter.
4. When Miley Cyrus comes to Singapore, bring a bazooka to her concert.
5. Send a fanmail to Miley Cyrus with my bloody pad inside.
6. Hang Miley Cyrus by her hair.

Hoohooo cat poop on yer face hillbilly girl~!

Okay, enough of Miley Cyrus. I'd make fun of Amy Winehouse, but she's so butt ugly martian that I'm traumatized by her photos already.

Moving on.

Anyways.. Merepek sia. Nobody said being in Design was about being "cool". Eat my shit. Who the hell said it was?? In fact, this is the first time I heard of anyone thinking that being in Design school is a LABEL. If you chose Design because of that, this is one big TSK for you. Go fuck yourself with a photo of Miley Cyrus please.

Seriously, I've not once thought that "I'm so cool" cos I'm a Design kid. Tsk mepek sia. I'm only proud to be here because it does show that I'd rather do something I know I like than going the so-called right route for a so-called bright future. And FYI, Heather is a "Business tourism shit" student but you have no idea how hot she can draw and dress up. Most definitely hotter than you to say the least.

Now stop being so full of yourself. Stop being such a stuck up disgrace to this school. There's no time for you to step hot. So go fuck yourself dry woman. Bloody freshies.

Around here, only people with real passion stay. The rest drop like flies.

Okay back to work. Too much CRAPTALK from people like that, turns my brain into fried maggots. Oh God, I have such an overwhelming urge to shit on her Hungry Ghost white face. (The Mask) SOMEBODAYY STOP ME~

Hooohooo, bitchy Yan come out and play. Ciao-

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They may not look mean. But don't mess with her man.

When I left, I was thinking, that was one too many times for letting me walk away. =(

And then he actually ran after me. For the fucking. first. time. o.O

But I still had to leave again. Alone to town in the freaking cold bus since it was raining.

I can't help it, I felt so frustrated and upset. Argghhh.. Off to Toni&Guy.

Thank you la Kean, you're the best I can ever ask. He was so awesome, he really lifted my mood. He gave me a decent haircut! =D And I won't really complain since it's free lol. P.S. He either has the hots for me, or he's gay. Hahaha, his text msgs to me were hilarious!

And seriously, listen to 987fm Muttons to Midnight. It will lighten your poor tired souls.

Unless you're me.. I keep bursting out laughing in the bus, so paiseh can?! But they seriously damn funny la okay. Tsk.

32 it would have been. But it's okay. Things happen for a reason. People fall in and out of love. But some people fall in and can't get out. They are what you call, pathetic.

Good night all. I hope when you fall in love, it won't kill you. Ciao-

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Bloody kids these days. Students of NORTHLIGHT SECONDARY SCHOOL, FUCK YOU ALL!

There were these three kids who switched on DANGDUT songs so damn loudly on a handphone and started screaming/singing along and the two minahs step mane peh gelek at the back of the bus. Fucking no manners.

Wtf. Aku tau la korang confirm underaged nak gi clubbing. Muke satu2 macam jamban tak cuci, nak step hot attract so much attention. Please la. And that one guy there, kirekan hot la tu, get two (black) chickies. PUI AH. Muke maplek.

Cb, I whack you with my PSP then you know. Then again, I would be lowering myself and be just like them by creating a scene.

Knn, I don't give a bulldog's shit la if you think I'm vulgar. These kids really need some matrep to teach them a lesson.

Takleh angkat sia muke typical black shit Malay, want to step hot. Aku pinch pinch pimple tak maintain die baru tau. Sumpah serious muke minah abes tikos mondok pat Simpang mak kau tak ajar pantat berkurap.

NORTHLIGHT SEC FUCK YOU!

Or was it, Northland. Ah jadi ah, all the same. Sume sampah masyarakat.

And to end it with a high note.

I FUCKING HATE WOODLANDS!!

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As grateful as I am to him being my first Bass teacher EVER, he is such a pain in the ass. He'll get very impatient when I don't get it right. Or if I strum shittily.

He morphs into an awesome guitar playing impatient asshole which is SO UNLIKE Seth. But it's hot like that. Haha.

Anyways, THANKS AGAIN FOR LITTLE INDIA AND SOUP SPOON HEATHER! =)

I watched Jumper with JX yesterday (THANK YOU THANK YOU!) and man was I irritated. That Rachel Bilson... Yaya, she's cute and whatever. BUT MAN SHE'S IRRITATING! I felt like killing her cos she caused the lead A LOT OF TROUBLE!! When the Paris police where catching up with them, she can still stand there and whine, "WHAT ARE YOU DOINNNGGG!! TELL ME THE TRUUUUTHHH!!"

STUPID BITCH! SO DAMN IRRITATING! Can you just die.

But I liked the part where he jumped her whole apartment. Cool shit.

Does anyone else find it dizzying? Urgh, the camera is so horrible.

Nightcrawler is way cooler.

ONLY GOD SHOULD HAVE THE POWER! Oh shut the fuck up old man.

My sister's birthday dinner! YAY FOR FREE FOOD!

OhmyGOD, I suddenly love being busy! So much plans, yay yay yay!

BABE I CAN PLAY THANK YOU FOR THE VENOM ALREADY! Except for a bit of confusing stuff at the beginning. Other than that, the solo parts, all good to go! I'm smarter than you!

ANYWAYS, MY BF HAS A JOB, WOOHOO! DOWN WITH CLIMB! IN WITH A PAYING JOB!

Can't stop playing my guitar since I got it back, OK BYE! Ciao-

The pictures will have to wait guys, SORRY.

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Stupid Stupid STUPID.

You don't have to look further. Now I know why TPSC is lousy in comps.

Going to your CCA just for attendance is sooooo secondary school okay.

Grow up. Be more flexible. Not everyone wants to practically live in the boulder gym like you, smelly old man.

Urgh. I hope the new captain knows better and will be more assertive with his own opinions.

It'll be like, Obama taking over Bullshit Bush. So GODDAMN refreshing kan!

So stupid. Seth raves about how much it'd be a waste of money (and time and energy) if he were to get kicked out just cos he doesn't pass the attendance. So that's why he has to go every training. -_______-

Please, in one week of ME WORKING, I can get you ten thousand climb shoes.

You know what you should do now? Whack your coach with your shoes. Satisfaction guaranteed. If not, your money back!

URGH, one last time..

Stupid.

bye la bye la.. I like my classes this block. =)

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It fuckin irritates me when Seth says that my laptop will break down in a few months. Then proceeding to tell Heather that her HP laptop will break down soon too.

Like as if his lousy fat ass shit Acer is any better. BOOOO!! ACER IS UGLY! MAKE THAT FUGLY!!

In such a pissing mood. You know when you feel like you went through so much with a friend. And even after a fight, you feel that you want to be friends. I tried my best. I sincerely wanted to be friends. But when you label me something like I'm a spare, then fuck you lah okay. Don't come to me for all kinds of help or entertainment when at the end of the day I'm the person who you think is not worth your time. Like a filler for the real episode. Screw you ugly piece of underaged shit.

I should bake for him little lumps of my shit and give it to him on his birthday. Maybe with a card that says, "Your Mini-Me's. Love, Seri." Shitfuck.

And don't you just freakin hate it when for example, you and your partner do a project together and they take all the credit. Showing off to their friends (in front of your face) how great they are when YOU did all the work?

Very fucked up people in this world innit?

These kind of people, I wanna throw my shit in their face. Stuff my shit in every opening on their body and make them gag my shit.

Does it hurt to give ME a little credit? OH NOOOOO. It would spoil allll your reputation. For that's the only thing you have cos you have an ugly assed-faced boyfriend and you're the ugliest among your group of friends too. WOWWWWW.

I'm just saying.

And you fucked up missy with a mouth that spits "bullets". More like spit tonnes of bull shit. What the fuck was up with "confronting" my best friend like that. Seriously, are you dumb or just stupid?

I just deleted the few hundred paragraphs I typed. Let's just keep it at this. Nice and personal.

Eat my melted shit, dog.

Ciao-

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The only flower I took a photo of! Obviously Seth is more interesting..

Picnic at Swan Lake.

I got freaked out when they got too near!

You may not see it, but that's Donatello Ninja Turtle. I know, he told me.

Seth proudly took that. Hahaha..

The Swan Song: An Orgy. =)

Friday was spent at home.

Seth and I wanted to watch Ayam Legend together. We made a promise. But I thought that it was a waste of money. So we load the movie together, on our own laptops. Heh.

We pressed play together but then his had some cock-ness. So we decided to continue another time instead. So today, he watched first before I did.

And then he had to do the stupidest thing ever.

HE SPOILT THE ENDING FOR ME.

Fucking hell I got so fucking pissed. Spoilers are second to Cheaters on my most hated list, if you didn't know already.

But it was an honest mistake, so I forgave him.

I think the movie was fine what! Aside from fake ass botak zombies, I think Will Smith is a great actor. He does the Castaway role really well.

SPOILER: (at least i fucking warn...)

So what if the hero dies? There's no bad-storyline there?? And it may seem like "divine intervention" when something told him to give Ana the cure. But it may very well be his instincts telling him what to do right?

My brothers are dumb. People say it's bad, they immediately want to say that too. Tsk.

Still, nothing can beat Milla and her zombies! She can kick my ass anytime! Woohoo!

And just now, while watching a recorded PCD: Search for the Next Doll, my younger sister FUCKING SPOILT THE ENDING. CB. SHE EXCLAIMED LOUDLY WHO THE WINNER WAS. FUCKING HELL.

I'M. SO. FUCKING. PISSED.

I hate spoilers!!!!

Have some consideration for people who actually care about the journey more than the ending please!

Okay, pissed off, Ciao-

My feet.... They are breaking apart toe by toe.

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THIS IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS.

an excerpt from The New Paper, 3rd Nov 2007:

"Singaporeans are more accepting when their colleagues, political leaders, policemen and teachers are from another race, but not when it comes to their spouse. This is the finding of a new study on how race and religion affect Singaporeans' interactions with each other. ..... Among the Chinese, when asked if they would marry someone their own race, 99% said they would. But if they were to have a Malay or Indian partner, only 31% would say yes."

hoho! so much for being racial tolerant eh? Wait, there's more.

"When it comes to their Prime Minister though, all the Chinese said they would accept a Chinese. If it were a Malay PM, the proportion went down to 91%, and if it were an Indian PM, 94% would approve.

However, the minorities (being Malays and Indians) are fully accepting of a Chinese PM as well as someone from their own race as Prime Minister."

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE?! People of my generation, PLEASE OH PLEASE don't be so fucking narrow minded la. So much for One People, One Nation. Oh yeah? Well it seems to me that just because we're of a different race, we're not allowed to be with your race? You people (WW2) Germans now? Believing in a superior race? Huh?

Well let's put it this way, would they approve of Heather having an angmoh boyfriend? Well, he's most probably a Christian and she's not, and he's obviously a different skin colour.

I have a certain female relative who's from the more Chinese side of my family. And she speaks Mandarin fluently and at one look of her fair skin, you'd think she's Chinese too. Anyways, she ended up having a Chinese boyfriend. When he told his parents that he had a Malay girlfriend they objected. Duh? So he didn't bring her to meet them.

They were still dating and after a few months (I suppose) he finally decided to bring her to a family gathering. Without telling his parents that she's the Malay girlfriend. (Heck, she looks like a Chinese remember?) She mingled around with his Chinese family and spoke Mandarin and then his parents commented, "Ah.. this is the kind of Chinese girl that we like.." HAHAHA, WELL IN YOUR FACE, SHE'S A MALAY.

SEE, WHY MAKE SUCH A BIG DEAL OUT OF RACIAL DIFFERENCES?!

Of course his parents found out cos in the end they got married. BUT, he had to wait til his grandparents died because they violently object to him marrying a Malay girl. My goodness, love has gotten so distorted.

I can't put it to so shaken with anger I couldn't hug you. Not at you, you know that. Pissed off shits man.

And there can't be anyone in a worse position than her. Not counting those in poverty-stricken countries blablabla..

What's life without getting to share it with someone you love man?

And what, you're gonna force Heather to marry a Chinese guy, let him fuck her though her heart's with another guy? So you care more about your FACE than her happiness?

Like I said before and will always say about this. Fucking. Ridiculous.

ciao assholes-

p.s: I swear I didn't mean to make this entry so long.

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the forces of evil are silently waiting in the corner to pounce on any sort of retaliation. but alas! the good forces are TOO MATURE. hahahahahaha!!

anyways, i've got too much things to do this week. NEXT WEEK ITS A HOLI- HOLIDAYYY! wheee! so sorry baby, i cant go town just to eat at far east. or parkway. haha. (grrr.... bloody banmian.. *drools*) and no lepak, something which i cant do lately without feeling guilty. cos projects are always at the back of my head. heck, i even dreamt of my untouched project last night!

sigh.. got so much work to do. 1metre sculpture. i wonder what i'll do. bah..am doing on Jean Dubuffet. not like any of you art-dimwits know right. haha. heck, i doubt you passed english even.

people say i'm bitchy, but please, i was waaaay worse last time with people i actually knew. and how i dissed poovan about the prom. hahaha. omg, damn funny. so if you wanna know how a trueblue bitch talks, go to PRIYA'S BLOG! i give her a 9 out of 10. reason being, she could have gone on, but she didn't! haha. she's a good girl. i like.

btw, jangan nak teraser la sia. konek tu grow kan dulu, before nak bukak mulot kau yang sebodoh satu geng matrep. free sangat kepe. puas hati kau carik pelacor isap konek kau sependek seekor snail tu.

and seriously, jangan nak teraser. this blog does not revolve around you numbnut.

anyhows, let's just have some pretty photos of rollerblading-tak-jadi. the one where we ended up eating bbq chicken (which apparently were too limed and masam, eh kater lidah mampos!) and food. yum. =) i love my boyfriend and i stayed up the whole of last night thinking of him and finally slept at 6.30 am. bah, gotta get work done now. ciao-

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HELLO BRADER.

YOU ARE FUCKING BULLSHIT OK. WHO ARE YOU TO TELL HEATHER WHAT TO DO, HOW TO BLOG. IN THE FUCKING FIRST PLACE, IT WAS ME WHO "CRITICISED" YOU. NOT HER OKAY? YA, WHY I SO KPO RIGHT? YOU KNOW WHY? BECAUSE EVEN I PITY YOUR PATHETIC (READ: PATHETIC) ASS I WANT TO HAVE A SAY. THERES NO REASON WHY I SHOULD NOT OR CANNOT. BECAUSE SINCE IT IS THE TRUTH, YOU CANT SUE ME FOR LIBEL. BUT EVEN I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR BULLSHIT OK.

FUCKING HELL, YOU READ THIS BLOG MORE OFTEN THAN MY BF DOES EVEN. BUT GUESS WHAT.

I BET HE CARE ABOUT ME MORE THAN YOU CARE ABOUT YOUR OWN MOTHER.

CHEEBYE. FUCKING CHILDISH CAN. IT'S SO SEC2 OF ME TO PICK FIGHT WITH SOMEONE OF BELOW MY IQ LEVEL. DUH? *smacks forehead*

SORRY EUNICE YAK, HEATHER AND I BOTH ARE REALLY CONCERNED ABOUT YOU AND ALL. BUT NICK (pretty right your name?) IS SO FULL OF BULLSHIT OKAYS. I CANT BELIEVE I HAVE SO MUCH DISGUST FOR SOMEONE I DONT EVEN KNOW.

i'm sorry. but it's just my style. if i criticise someone, i might as well go all out. no point dicking around the bush. it's such a contrast that even nicholas (another of heather's friend) is sooo much nicer and definitely different.

whatever lah okay. that's enough already. you can tag, can blog, can do whatever the fuck you want, but really ah i wont give a flying fuck anymore. cos these buried frustrations are all out now.

i doubt seth would be proud that his gf is being so hostile. sorry baby. and summore at this stressful time of the month. (final assignment coming up!)

back to bigger news. heh, and you thought nothing can top the above.

I GOT MY TABLET! I GOT MY TABLET! I GOT MY TABLET! and for those noobs, it's a tablet pc where you can rotate the screen and use the pen to write on directly. anyways, SO PRETTYYYY!! even so, i'm still using the home com to blog cos it's so much faster and comfortable. bigger & brighter screen. hah.

just in time to design my shopfront. WHEE! I LIKE LOVE SAYANG! once again, it's so shinyyyyy... =)

okay, excited redi, CIAO-

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bah. i pity my girlfriend. she always have to put up with ridiculous behaviours. and even with people who are way stupider than she is. and they think they like, absolutely OWN the world. someone please make them kiss my ass.

it's pathetic how people can think that these kind of ppl make good bf/gf when they are so freakin stupid so clueless about the world around them.

and it's worse when you try to talk some sense into them and they somehow reject you flat with some stupid arsed insensitive comment. dumbass.

well good luck then, cos you just lost the one most sensible gf you ever had (who's really willing to put up with your shit). and it'll take more than sweet words you conjured (which you dont mean) to have her back. this time, you'd have to at least pack dozen bouquets of roses in a porsche carrera and drive it to her doorstep. good luck man. sincerely.

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okay, i'm supposed to be helping seth do his assignment. but that's a whole different story, a whole different blog. haha.

am pooped out.. but at least i'm on the laptop so i can lie down. okay, big deal. i can't get around doing the photos tonight.. just no mood la, okay? sorry la. tomorrow can. =) omg, the autosave thingy is so kute and so useful! thank you blogger, you're so smart.

today the guys had auditions for music vox. seeing the number of bands who joined, i was like, WHOA! cmi. hahaha. i mean, it's not like they were bad or anything. just no oomph you know? like, out of 20 or 30 plus bands, you're only gonna choose 3 0r 4? really ah? stingy sia.

when i saw the boyfriend just now, belting his lungs out on their first song, my heart skipped beats. guess it kinda brought out those butterfly-ish thingies at the pit of my stomach. cos, i can never forget the first time i actually heard him sing. and back then, his voice wasn't as um... let's just say it was waaaay nicer. anyways, ah damn it, let's cut a story short. that was when i fell into the deepest crush ever. guess i'm not so over you now huh. =)

things have been hard, and i just wanna let it go. but i know i'll regret like fuck-why-was-i-so-stupid. so i'm hanging on dearly okay? everything's a struggle man.. i've been spending waaay too much than i'm making money man. and you know what's worse than that? the fact that i'm not even working! bleeding hell. and drawing class was a whore. i've so much to complete. i'm totally behind everyone cos i keep procrastinating. bleah. and oh my god, don't even get me started on...

zip.

sucks la sia. everyone thinks their life's a wreck. hey, you're not alone what. so quit complaining la. wahlao, i feel like stuffing a coconut up your nostrils you know? like, aren't you old enough already?! get your problems fixed yourself la! okay, it's not the best time of the month for me to be the best friend to anyone but heather. and only heather. god, i'm so easily pissed. and sadly, it WILL go on for till next week. cos after the coming thursday, IT'LL BE ONE MONTH HOLIDAY FOR ME BEBEH!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOO! oh yeah, finger lickin goood.

so please my dear friends... let me chiong this last week of school. you now know that it's my last week right, so means i've got TRUCK, TRAILER, TRAINLOADS OF WORK TO DO!!!!!!! freshie work easy la, but it's still tough okay? hard to survive know.. they don't teach you much, yet expect so much more. *stress stress*

aiyah, i dunno what's "meant to be" anymore. too bad, so sad. upset.

oh my god!!! i really miss razif ramli you know!!!!!! his stupid jokes. his adoring laughter and the slower kind of laughter when your jokes ain't funny but he just wants to be nice. haha. wah, i miss ili too! that girl. same ol' same ol'. haha. and that's a good thing mind you.

okays, i realise random posts are really irritating. wells, i'll go of now. good night all! tomorrow i'll throw some pictures into your face okay? muahaha. ciao-

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so stupid. the whole weekend, i was bouncing on the thought that i had no school today. then this morning, OF ALL MORNINGS, i recalled a conversation with seth where i told him i had school on 14th, which was today. argh! so pissed can.

usually i meet seth on monday mornings, but today i told him we don't meet so he can go his accounting lecture. (which he can miss and yet pass *poa poa*) BUT GUESS WHAT, he decided to go school library. so what's the point of us not meeting? no comments.

stayed up till 4 am last night. bleah.. have to go online tutorials on how to draw. so pathetic can? the teacher expects us to do not one, not two, but THREE self portrait paintings. KAO. 1st of all, we haven't even learn how to draw facial features, 2nd of all I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FREAKING PAINT! grr. heck, i'll be amazed if i can tell the difference between a paintbrush and a toothbrush.

so stressed can.. and by tomorrow, i need to be done with my 2000 word essays. which i've only completed 500+ words thus far. BLEAH BLEAH BLEAH. and the strains of a relationship is totally not helping. one person i thought who can help lighten the load, keeps burdening me instead. bloody hell.

and khai, i hate emo. I HATE EMO! EVERYTHING ABOUT EMO! the pathetic songs. the pessimistic people. so disgusting. when i see someone being so emo, i'll feel like slapping them. bloody hell. i hate weak people too. emo is so freaking.. hateable. bloody faggots. bloody hell. i hate emo so much. ARGH. its puke-disgusting. im sorry khai, if you become anymore emo that you already are, i dont want to be associated to you. COS ITS DISGUSTING!!!! unless you can tell me what is it about emo that is so fascinating or likeable. you tell me. even the songs are oh-my-god boring and slow... -.-

argh, im so pissed right now, i don't wanna talk anymore. enough.

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you know, i really think i'm a horrible bitch.

yes khai, i talk behind your back.

but i talk behind seth's back too. if not for my blog, neither of you would have known. because welcome to the real world man. girls talk behind backs ALL THE TIME.

only i'd like to think i'm so daring that i don't even make this blog private and i blog such shit. LOL. yes, maybe i tend to get overboard and exaggerate. wait, i take that back. i don't exaggerate.

anyways, reality check people. as long as your girlfriend has girl best friends, they talk behind your back like ALL THE TIME man. good or bad, we don't really remember.

and what makes me a more horrible bitch is that i can go on with life, knowing that the people i bitched about are all around me. you know why? because i don't care.

HAH. in your face. okay, this refers to everyone i bitched about. too many right? i know.

oh, but actually seth is aware of my bitchings and knows i complain alot. so that's our glue i guess. lol.

and boy, you ARE a human. just a bad one at it.

god, i love me.

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happy 21st. =)

i'm still sick.. i got an off tomorrow also. woohoo. i'm here to complain again.. okay, i'll let it rest. i'm sure you folks get rolled-eyes bored about seth already. why oh why, am i so fuckin obsessed with him..

not meeting him today. he's out with the guys. like i always say, i don't care if he doesn't even go home as long as afiz is there. if it's fahmy.. HAH. don't even think about it.

haven't heard from my faggot friend in a long while. not like i care actually. wait, no hypocrite is my friend. heather won't let me confront him. as much as i used to bore so much hatred for dila, having a "friend" like khai make me almost love her. i'm dead serious man..

god, i just hate faggots. BAPOK. omfg.

i'm blogging without a cause again. i'm so dead bored can! arrrrggghhh. i feel so stoned can. wish i can do something. ANYTHING.

i think khai is cheena. OMG. he practically forces everyone to spell his name with a double 'i' as in khaii. DUDE, how gay is THAT. i do that sometimes. as in the "cutesy" sewii. BUT THATS OK, COS I'M A GIRL! oh goodness. the fact that afiz is so man. ajit so tough. azip so mature. acap so cool. MAKES YOU SO MUCH MORE AN OUTSTANDING GAY! god, i still love you though. (as borat says: NOT!)

hahahaha. like any other girl, i'll excuse my bitchings as PMS. hahaha. as if.

lalalaaa. heather got some lovely valentine's day prez. i also want sehhhhh..... =(

bleah. i won't complain. i can't.

will update again later when anything funny happens ok? pretty promise. ciao-

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you KNOW its a small world.

example? i "knew" Hadi from my sis. was her jc mate/junior.

turns out, that Hadi's gf, is seth's pri school friend.

and they had dinner at our pizza hut that day. haha. its a small small world. or maybe its just singapore.. hah.

as usual, i got worked up about the usual stuffs while talking to nas.. like, the faggot, the poser and the wannabe. god, it'll never end..

i'm so dead bored.. having a conference with ajit, acap, afiz and seth on msn. haha. they funny like fuck sial! duh.

discussing about the next chalet. faggot tak dapat bilek!! HAHAHA! kau gi maen tu catty sua eh? fucking faggots. i hate guys who look girlish. mind you, not gays. just guys who look girlish. their eyes. their smile. their HAIR. omg.. faggots. DASAR BAPOK.

i'm coughing my lungs out here.. i'm really tired and all.. i've been online for more than 12hrs now... 14 hrs to be exact. WOOOHOOOO! 5 days off babe!

sick leave rocks. working part time rocks.

i'm tired of being sick! i guess it doesn't help that i'm onthe com like an addicted freak.

okay, like my back is seriously aching right now........

ciao-

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wow... its been long. i'm horribly sorry..

in short, i nearly left seth. now that i think about it, WHAT WAS I THINKING! its like you've went on a scuba expedition for a pearl. and you get so exhausted by the fruitless journey, that when you finally find the pearl, you go nuts and angry that it took so long and in that moment of rage, you feel like throwing away the pearl. but by sheer luck or fate, at the last second, you realise, its plain stupid to throw away something so beautiful. of course you'll benefit from that decision.

you know what i mean? haha. well, i don't really.

anyways, let's put that aside. yesterday was our 14th monthly-versary. my favourite.

on valentine's day, he promised, i will get the prez on our 14th instead.

but guess guess. nope, i get no nothing. cos he was broke. we spent the whole day with my money. wait wait, not only that! but he spent the whole day getting so worked up his PSP, he's supposed to get today. he was more worried that his parents' were only giving him half of what they promised. so now he's left with $300 to buy a pink PSP.

and who comes to save the day?

me, of course. so i funded him another $100.

and just now, he got his PSP. pink. god, i hope he's happy.

i also told him that i'm giving him the money just so he will shut up about it already. hahaha. so i just gave what he wanted. if not, he'll pester me on about it. talk about all kinds of games. while i nod and nod. and nod. and nod. and of course, smile. haha.

the other day, when he first found out that his mum is willing to give only $300, i made him do a dare. i gave him a shake of pepper on a piece of paper. and told him, "if you snort all of these pepper up your nose, i'll cover the rest of your psp fees." and he actually did it.

HE DID IT FOR GOD'S SAKES! HE SNORTED PEPPER JUS BECAUSE HE WAS DESPERATE FOR A PSP. goodness..

been swimming alot. and cos of that, i'm tanned and dark. and shiny. WOOHOO!

then i fell sick. fever, cough, stuffed nose, the works! i've never got so sick that i couldn't taste or smell. GOD. so horrible can.

i ate cili padi like it was tomato ketchup man..

anyways, seth went to the clinic with me. okay, i know i keep ranting on his horrible ways. but he's a nice guy okay. he spoils me no end. he took me to the clinic. did everything for me. and all i had to do was to see the doctor. at the end of the day, i still love him like madness.

i just complain too much.

i've got 2 days MC. haha. woohooo!

i'm betting that tonight i won't be hearing from seth. he'll be much too busy with his PSP. haha. oh wells. guys and gadgets. they are like glue gajah, i tell you.

i'm off for more download frenzy. thank you nassie for the website. I LOVE YOU!

lalalaalalaaa... i'm far too tired to bother about anything else. for now, just let me think of myself. fuck off. GOODBYE! ciao-

Labels: 27th, bitch, seth

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i was too flustered up to blog just now..

haiyo..

straight to the point eh. i ter-found, ter-watch the video where seth was being fainted by two guys. i think the two razifs? i can't make out who. nothing against them, really. i was horrified.

petrified.

i swear, i was left shaken when seth really did faint. all done on purpose.

what's the motive?

my heart broke. why, you ask? i went through so much pains to take care of him. and i feel as if this is how he repays me.

to see him in such a vulnerable state, it shattered me.. his head drooped to one side. his hands hung loose.. if not for the guys' support, he would have fallen like a piece of bird shit. literally. his knees lost muscle support. he fell to ground. they slapped him awake. people laughed.

laughed.

LAUGHED.

while there i was left, shaken. teary eyed at khaii's handphone. trying my best to hold it back in. choking it at the back of my throat. of course it all ran amok in the end.

why did they laugh?

what was so funny?

what humour do they get from fainting the person i loved so much. whom i care more than anyone else. perplexing..

why?

i wasn't angry at all. i was already beyond that phase. i went through that a month ago. i got angry enough with him over this certain episode.

now that i saw it with my own eyes, im out of words. im shocked in disbelief. scared stiff. i don't even know what it is that im scared of!

watching the video made me shake more than opening my result slip.

sumpah dengan nama Allah.

as i'm typing this, i'm shaking too. i watched the video only once. i don't dare to watch it again. my heart is pounding against my rib cage. i'm going crazy here.

i don't get the joke.

what's so funny! =(

oh god, my reaction was x315763457358750 worse watching the video than waiting for my results.

god, i'm still shaking..

on a sliiightly lighter note, i did rather well for my 'o's. reached my target of 14! like i said so yesterday.

seth and i got the exact same points. our cca points pon the same. DON'T get me started on english ok. just DON'T.

i'm content. i didn't cry. there was no need to right?

i will say thank you to all my well wishers. in no particular order cos they just popped out of nowhere.

-heather

-razif kassim

-razif ramli

-afiz

-nassie

-jasmine tan

-joycelyn

-my mother

-my grandmother

-my older sister

-my younger sister

-my SIBLINGS LA!

-my cousin

-jian xiong

-oops, seth

-nadhirah!

-ili

-khaii

-neni

-lenny

-acap

last but not least

-seri

actually i must look at my yearbook to actually remember all that wished me congrats or good luck. haha.

nas: B-B-B-BULU BULU BULU!!

HAHAH! SHE SO HAIRY SIA! STILL WANT TO POST A PHOTO OF HER (PURPOSELY) SUCKED-IN HAIRY STOMACH. OH GOD. IM CRYING, HOOTING, FALLING OFF THE CHAIR, LAUGHING!

besides the point yang dier tu itam maplek.

BEBULU SIAAAAAAAAAAAALL. omg! it cheered me up slightly.

konon sexy ah pakai bikini. ya allah..

BEBULU!!!

dah la tak jambu, BERbulu plak tu..

eh, MY MALAY A2 OK!

besides being slightly raving mad+confused at seth, i'm so proud of him! he passed EMATH! first time since pri school ok! and straight to B3. =) and he got a distinction in comb sci! SO PROUD OF HIM CAN?! his english same as me.. (ok, enough before i get depressed.. and i mean seriously...) POA B3 ah. okok. f&n dah goner. fail. haha. all in all, im just so proud of him la! U GO BABE! =))

i'm glad we both got same points. so there will be no competition. and we're equally smart. AWESOME. we're meant to be.

should be la..

okay! this turned out too long. haha. tomorrow dmn sch bazaar. =) officially my alma mater. CIAO-

Labels: bitch, results, seth

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i feel i've reached the point in my relationship where i'm just stoned..

for the first time in my whole life of loving seth, (cheh, macam dah 200 yrs like that..) my feelings for him not once wavered. eversince he met fahmy and started working, everything just changed.

how foolish of me to think that maybe, just maybe, by joining him to work at the same place, might bring us closer. might tighten up the loose strings which broke when i was all lonely and jobless at home.

i sat on the concrete slab, just stoning. after work just now. i was so dazed. seth came but i was stoned. i couldn't talk. god knows how many times he said, "sayang dah tak sayang i lagik eh..." but all i could do was stare into blankness. i don't know what overcame me to do that. goodness, he was so patient with me.

then again, i've been so mad at him lately, only once or so going home with a smile on my face. neither do i know why i've been so fucking emo. right now, i'm having mixed feelings. i'm so full of rage and love for that boy.. just change.. oh god please..

another first, i cried my eyeballs out shamelessly in public just now. that's a WOW. thank god for my oversized shades..

haiya.. i feel like giving up. i want to have a talk with fahmy. let him know how i feel. then again, i don't want him to be freaked out by me or anything..

i hate being second place. i hate being put to the next priority after "Work, Making Friends." god, i'm pissed at hell at seth. yet... yet... ARRRGHH.

ENOUGH! OK?! ENOUGH!

hafiz... i need you. or even better. HEATHER..... =,( my girl's been too busy for work. me too. can't wait to see her soon. haiya..

how was work? WELL WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?! its work! pardon me for being so forlorn (if only you could see my face) and depressing..

OMG! SOMETHING SO FUNNY HAPPENED!

my mum was tucking in to bed. but there were loud sounds like scraping metals. so my mum asked my bro to shout to the "bloody ind" to shut up. and guess what my bro did?! he shouted, "OI!! PEOPLE WANT TO SLEEP LA OI!!" omfg! the fella, presumably an ind, then made minimal noise. sial ah! funny sial! with a family who are so against all kinds of bloodys, how can i not be so prejudiced against them?? haha. i likee....

a while back, i was to busy to update, now i'm just moodless.

lies, broken promise, changes. the demise of a relationship.

stop being such an emofuck!

god, GOOD NIGHT! promise to update soon. ciao-

Labels: bitch, emotional, seth

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