i'm paranoid. i want Visual Comm in TP. but i'm scared to put VC nyp as my second choice. in case i don't get TP. how sial!

fishball la. i want to take photography ok. fishball kari. AHHHHH. BINGET AHHHH!

ok best, i put the first 3 choices all TP design courses. followed by the nyp VC.

IM A GENIUS CAN?!

hmm.. followed by republik poly. only cos its near to home.

and my 12th choice? Hwa Chong JC. amacam?

sure get one.

hmmm.. pretty much made up my mind. just need to mull over it for a bit tonight before finalising it tomorrow.

MORE IMPORTANTLY.. heh.

i bought seth his valentine's prez. didn't actually cost a bomb but i'm satisfied la.. =)

hope he likes it.. heh.

nanyang poly website lousy sia. they didn't specify their course structure. haiyo.

I WANT VC LA SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..

if i don't get to do photography, and be condemned to hwa chong jc, i will kill myself.

hahahahahahhahaha. hey, i still can't believe i got a B3 for comb sci. wahahahhaaaa.. the first in my family! both my parents and my older sis and older bro, all got a freakin C6 for their comb sci. WOOHOO! three cheers to physics!

okay, this is ab important question people..

SHOULD I, put my top priority choices at tp just so i can be close to seth.. or put my 2nd choice as nyp (just to take photography) and risk straining our relationship...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargghh..

i think i just made up my mind.. SETH OF COURSE! hahahahaha...

you think easy ah, maintain a long distance relationship? lucky we already passed the one year mark. woohoo! suddenly had a rush of love for him. i LOVE it when it happens. nyahaa.

where is seth, btw? he said he will be coming online.. hmph.

anyways, yesterday followed seth and taufiq go play lan. while i sat there watching borat on taufiq's psp. heh. and then listening to his songs. by then, they still haven't finished. so i moved on to seth's mp3.. haiyo.. then later in the night, seth asked me if i was bored by the day.. i said a huge BIG , FAT , NO! cos taufiq is a nice guy. and if it was fahmy, i would be pissed the very second they sit down in front of the computer.. hah. i don't give a flying fishball if i sound like i dislike fahmy. hah. cos it's true.

what kind of man will dare to dress up like an emo kid yet be scared of mat reps in groups who might beat you up.. berani buat, berani tanggung. LU ADA PAHAM? dare to do it, be daring enough to face the consequences. sial ah.. what kind of man who was a self-professed punk turn himself into a self-professed emo kid. what kind of man thinks that he's all that just by listening to a couple of underground bands. alesana or something. i don't care to know cos frankly i don't give a shit. and WHAT KIND OF MAN, turns my formerly loving (sincere, unposer-ish, un-into other bands but green day who makes music with meaning) BOYFRIEND into another being who is a long haired trynnawannabe emo-lookalike, occassionally dumps me for that-kind-of-man, who talks non stop about bands i don't even give a flying fishball about, and hurts my heart like nothing he ever did.

WHAT KIND OF MAN DID THAT YOU ASK ME?!

a greasy haired 17 yr old mother fucking loser asshole.

STOP asking him to go home later cos he's going off with ME, his GIRLFRIEND, you mofo.

and to the trynnawannabe, STOP being dogged by him.

I HATE WEAK PEOPLE!!!! ARRRRGHHHH!!!

SUCK UPS! WANNABES! WEAKLINGS! they are all fuckers, i tell you.

i SO made myself pissed shit man.

BINGET SAK. puki la. just another reason for me to love the usual guys. our SEC SCH friends. do you remember their NAMES? or do would you prefer that motherfuckingboy to suck your cock to forget them?

BINGET SAK!

OK ENOUGH. dah cukop. i got more important stuffs to bother about.

and now i'm so pissed that i feel like just throwing the vday prez in his face. damn.

*pulls trigger*

okay, RELAX. this is the first time i ever got so mad at him. and it just keeps coming back. even though i can totally forget about them for a few days. it will just come back, like an irritating stomach ache. like period cramps. I HATE EMO FUCKS. FUCK YOU ALL FUCKERS.

that's enough for today. i made my point clear. period. ciao-